running through my head

I thought I'll be able to rest this weekend. Aside from the house chores, I kept on thinking a lot of things-- my parents, especialy my Ma, my relatives in the province, especially my grandma who's really weak and ailing (it's been more than a decade since we last saw each other), my job, him, me and my weird dreams. I never thought thinking would be this tiring.

random thoughts

After shift, the terror sup called me and discussed what I did earlier at work. I was on standby mode for 9 minutes and I was not aware of it. She thought I was avoiding calls. I am too new to be avoiding calls huh. I really thought for a moment I'll be terminated. Sheesh! Glad it went well. I just signed a paper and next time I do that, I get a written warning. Nyarks!


Weekend again! Come to think of it, I'll be the head of the family for the next 10 days since my parents are as of the moment, on the plane to Bacolod to attend a wedding. My Ma will also have her check-up there to get a second opinion from her OB-GYNE.


So, here's to freedom and wild parties! Yeehaw! NOT!


Actually, no one will cook for us. I have to learn how to digest the food in the canteen. I'll be doing the laundry, the house cleaning, the ironing and yes, the budgeting for the next week. It's going to be tough since I'm used to just sleeping when I feel tired. *sigh*


I'm still in the office cafe. They're watching the mass celebration for the Pope's burial. I'm listening to the priest and the choir. The choir is great! And of course, the crowd is huge and there are a lot of VIP (and I mean really Very Important People) in the crowd. I told my friend it's a haven for assassins. Hehe! I was surprised when the commentators in Fox News' coverage quoted Cardinal Sin when they mentioned about the Pope's "unconventional" ways as he once visited a synagogue. The Pope was one-of-a-kind since he was open to other religions (like the Jews, the Moslems, etc.) and considering the history of the Catholic Church, it was an extraordinary move. I also admire the way he kept a bond with the youth. I notice a lot of of young people make up the crowd during the funeral. A while ago, Filipino was one of the languages used during the mass. They even sang "The Apostle's Creed" in Tagalog. Cool! It was a beautiful celebration to remember a great man. It makes me think it is possible for one man to touch the lives of many.


Yesterday, my sis and I went to Manila Cathedral in Intramuros to sign the Pope's condolence book. Earlier today, they shipped those books to the Vatican. Buti pa yung sulat ko makakarating sa Vatican. *sigh*

finally, a day job!

Just got off work. I'm sleepy but I don't wanna sleep now lest I wake up again later in the evening and end up having a very light sleep later. Like what happened last night. Since I'm not used to sleeping early in the evening, I ended up sleeping at about 1AM. Since I was scared of waking up late and miss work, it was a very light sleep and I woke up several times until I got out of bed by 4AM. It was weird taking a real "lunch" and looking over Makati in broad daylight! Aside from the prank calls, I think I'll adjust well. I just need to save up for some good books for the down time. =)

The Pope and the prophecies

I woke up and my Ma told me Pope John Paul II died earlier today, about 3AM my time. I was anxious about Vatican's announcement last night. I was so sad. Although I am not a very firm believer of the Catholic Church, I do look up to the Pope as a leader of the Church, the most-loved pope and a very extraordinary man. The Pope is one inspiration that still made me cling to some of my Roman Catholic beliefs even if I'm not a practicing Christian. One CNN correspondent said that Catholics (and even non-Catholics) are orphans today. We just lost a father.


I have always wanted to be one of the Pope's private audience. I wanted to probably have lunch with him and just talk to him. And although I have never been a private audience, I am proud to say that he has been to my country twice in my lifetime. Once was when I was only 5 months old in 1980. He went to my home province, Bacolod City. My parents said we were waiting for him to pass in front of the city hall, so the Pope can bless me. The second time was during the World Youth Day. I never saw him personally but I always pass by the mansion where he stayed in coz I pass by there everyday when I went to school.


Once in a while today, we watch CNN's coverage. It is very interesting to know the traditions and rituals about what the Church does when a pope dies. After reading Dan Brown's "Angels and Demons", some even sounded familiar. They're showing him now lying in state. If only I have the means, I wanted to go there and see him. =(



Pope John Paul II1920 - 2005

There is this "prophecy" about a war starting after the Pope dies. Speaking of prophecies, I also got an email about the nun who foresaw the tsunami saying that there will be an earthquake in the Philippines with Quezon City as the epicenter and a part of Manila going under sea level near Manila Bay. It was scary when I read that and I don't know really if I believe in it. I cannot do anything except live my life one day at a time.


Back to my life, I should be asleep earlier tonight since I'll be waking up about 4 to 4:30 AM. This will really test me since I am not a morning person. I just hope I'll adjust well with the morning schedule.

survival of the "fittest"

Finally, I can breathe now. I passed OJT! But I'm not really celebrating. Out of 18 people in our batch, only 7 were left to go on to Ops floor. I think our batch went through one stressful month and for the record, I think we had the highest "mortality rate" in the history of that account.


My close friend, whom I've been working with since more than 2 years ago, did not make it. The job is probably not for her, but I am still sad. I mean, we're all scattered already in different companies. I know I'm going to meet new friends but I know they will never be replaced.


It's sad. I know everyone goes through this. When our lives meet at a crossroad then forks again to different destinations. I'm just thankful I met friends like them (yes, even those friends way back when I was in school).


Last Wednesday, I was so nervous of our call monitoring. I had doubts if I'll make it. I said a prayer and asked for a sign just to let me know that this job is for me. After call monitoring, I got my first 100 score. I couldn't believe it! I guess this was meant for me.


By Monday, there are going to be some changes in my life. I'll belong in a new team. I'll be "alone" since I'm not with long-time friends anymore. I'll meet new people. I'll learn new call types. The biggest change of all is that I'll be scheduled in the morning for the next two weeks. From 6AM to 3PM. After more than 2 years, this is the first time I'll have a daytime shift. I don't know if I'll like it or I could adjust. I know the pay will be lesser because there's no night differential. But, I'll try to make the most out of it. Yes, I'll try to lead a "normal life" for a change.


...Always pay, pursue, protect
Be a master
Be a slave
Work your ass into an early grave
But you deserve to be loved
You deserve something real
Time to heal
Time to feel...
~"To Be Loved", Curtis Stigers