the board is set...

I am edging my way to that final and very hard decision in my "career" life. Like what Gandalf in The Lord of the Rings said, "The board is set. The pieces are moving." I am just waiting for that day when I confirm everything with a piece of paper.


Despite the attempts of some of my officemates to plant seeds of doubt in my head, I made several moves today. I couldn't sleep yesterday because I had lots of things in mind. It's tough when I am robbed of a much-needed snooze.


Although I don't want to face the coming days ahead, I need to. I don't want to think of it as quitting. I'd rather think of it as moving on. I'm leaving a place where I am comfortable, a place where I have set a standard for myself and for others. I am also leaving my routine. I'll be heading straight to the unknown. I have to tell myself that the past few months I've spent in this place were not futile. I learned. I laughed. I worked. I lived. I survived. The hardest thing for me is leaving my friends-- those people who made the memories unforgettable and the time worthwhile. Aside from the friends I have from the previous company, I have also managed to make new ones. It felt unfair in a way that I will shorten the time I could have spent with them. But I guess if the friendship is true, it will last amidst the distance. I know I will miss them.


Aside from this, I have also made another decision. Quite as tough. I don't want to burden myself with responsibilities. I have so much on my shoulders right now. I need some time. I just hope people will understand, especially the council members of TPTS.