Wednesday, August 31, 2005
This space...
...is my way of showing a silent prayer for all the victims of hurricane Katrina and for my friend Debbie's father who passed away last Monday. My condolences. =(
Sunday, August 28, 2005
down memory lane
Got this tag again from Jennie a couple of days ago. I had to take some time to think about the answers. It was nice going down memory lane just to answer this:
What I was like...
20 Years Ago...
28th of August 1985. I was 5 years old. It was my third month as a Kinder I student in Tay Tung High School (Chinese school) in Bacolod City, Negros Occidental. I can't remember that much but I knew I got this huge crush on Ricky Martin that I egged my Ma on buying the Menudo album for me. Locally, I admire Raymund Lauchengco (don't know if I got the spelling correct) that I have his poster in my study table in my room. *gag*
A few months before that I accidentally stabbed my left thigh with a pencil (Mongol) and the lead got stuck beneath my skin but it did not bleed. Right now, it's like a really pale mole on my left thigh.
Oh and I won a P500 from a drawing contest from Unicef (of course there was an age bracket/category). I remember drawing a man carrying a basketball and a woman carrying a flower and some bushes with roses on it. The winners from that was featured in the local paper that my Pa even cut it out and framed it. I don't know where that is right now but I got a small piano player from that win. I learned how to play "Twinkle, Twinkle", "The Birthday Song" and my fave of them all "Do-Re-Mi".
15 Years Ago...
28th of August 1990. I was 10 and a new transferee from the Chinese school (Tay Tung) to Univerity of Negros Occidental - Recoletos (a Catholic school also in Bacolod City) where my father worked as a college teacher at that time. My previous school was a bit advanced that I ended up always raising my hand to recite during classes coz I was in grade 4 then but the lessons they were taking, I already learned in grade 3. This made the teachers and this one cute guy notice me too! He was my crush then and I learned he had a crush on me too. But later on, I learned he kissed another girl so I was turned-off and decided to look for "more mature" men instead.
This was also my first time to learn Religion as a subject and I was even a part of the Glee Club of our Elementary. I sang during mass every Wednesdays (Immaculate Conception). I wonder why I'm not that "holy" now? Probably because all the innocence was gone. Hehe!
10 Years Ago...
28th of August 1995. I was 15 and my family had been living in Manila for about 3 years at this time. I was in third year high school in San Sebastian College - Recoletos (another Catholic school in Recto, Manila), where my father worked as a high school teacher. Due to being naughty and for not meeting what my mother expected of me when I graduated Elementary, I became a really serious student and have been the top one in the whole batch for 3 consecutive years (at this time ha). I tapped my geekiness during this stage.
I wasn't in the choir anymore but I started writing and became a Features Editor in the school paper, and eventually became the Associate Editor after turning down the Editor-in-Chief post (Naks!). I got some silly crushes, but at that time I thought I was really serious that I ended up embarrassing myself by having this love poem I wrote published in the school paper dedicated to my crush! (Nakakahiya talaga!)
I got a crush on this guy two years my senior and when I learned he'll be going to college in another university, I gave him this graduation card (through my friend coz I haven't had the guts to do it) and I think he knew who I was. It was sent anonymously. Now I realized how pathetic I was when it came to infatuation. *sheesh*
I've got my own group of friends/barkada and we even had a name for it. Each of us had our own "love interests" then. I also loved watching NCAA at this time since our school had been the champions for three consecutive years (we also became champs on the fourth year) and these were the times when PBA big leaguers like Rodney Santos, Rommel Adducul (who became a close friend), Banjo Calpito and Mark Macapagal (who was my batchmate and who played in the juniors' team) were still playing for our school.
5 Years Ago...
28th of August 2000. I was 20 and going through a rough time in CAMP (College of Allied Medical Professions) in University of the Philippines - Manila (P. Faura St.) as a B.S. Physical Therapy undergrad student. This was the internship time and I was worrying about getting my first and only 4.0 grade during my rotation in PGH. I knew then that my graduation would be delayed a year because I got an "Incomplete" grade. It turned out, I passed all the clinics and hospitals (and a special school) I went through. But I'd be doing an extra 4 weeks in PGH and my diploma will show I graduated in June 2001 (instead of May 2001) but I will march up the stage May 2002. It sucked but I was glad coz my parents didn't show me that it mattered. They didn't make a big deal out of it. I did. There was no more pressure from my parents but at that time, I pressured myself. I cried as I passed by the hospital chapel when I learned that I'd be delayed.
This was the time when the "chasing dreams" started. I've always dreamt about being chased by a stranger or an individual (I never got to discover who) but thankfully, the chase always got cut coz I wake up really tired and sweaty. I think the dreams just reflected the psychological situation that I'm in at this time.
This was also the time when I fell in love with Westlife's Mark Feehily! I already watched a Westlife concert and got the chance of seeing them up close and personal when they stayed at the Westin Philippine Plaza. Yeah, my sister and I were stalking them when we "forced" ourselves to have breakfast there. I never had a boyfriend at this time and I got this crush on a batchmate who was taking B.S. Speech Pathology but since I was so focused on graduating, I never had the time.
3 Years Ago...
28th of August 2002. I passed the PRC (Professional Regulations Commission) PT Board Exams! Eight months ago, I started working as a research assistant in a medical study in Manila Doctor's Hospital (U.N. Avenue). A couple of months before, I worked in the mornings and attended boards review class in the afternoon. It was where I met some good friends and (until this day) the only guy friend who shared a birthday with me (Hi Wes!). The "holiness" I lost in UP came back when I started attending the weekly mass in St. Jude (patron saint of hopeless cases) in Mendiola.
A week before the boards, I didn't go to work and sort-of locked myself in my room pressuring myself by placing stacks of reviewers and books on my bed and giving a time limit to each topic I review. It was harsh so the time limit was not followed. Hehe!
Last Year...
28th of August 2004. I was working in ICT, a callcenter in Makati. It was the second callcenter company I worked in and my third job. At that time, I don't have any plans of moving to another company yet and I was happy spending work days with friends and trying my best in doing the job. At this time, Lisse and I were officially together for over a year. I can't remember exactly what I did then but I bet it was just one of the routinary days in my boring existence.
Last Night...
27th of August 2005. I was asleep. I was supposed to attend Rommel's birthday party and since it was raining and I was not feeling well and I haven't had sleep, my Ma told me to rest. I woke up at about 9PM and watched the end part of Miss Teen USA and cleaned up and went back to sleep.
Today...
28th of August 2005. I'm just at home. It's a Sunday. I've been sneezing often today and I hope it's not a flu or something. I plan to go to mass later this afternoon.
Next Year...
Probably still working in a callcenter until my sister graduates from college. I hope it breezes through coz I want to live my life. I'm not getting younger...
Five Years From Now...
I would be 30 then. I hope at this time I'm working in a job that I like. Probably here or abroad it doesn't matter. I'd probably go back to school and study more (Masterals?) while working. Hopefully at this time, I have bought a house and lot already for my parents in the province where they can settle down and enjoy life. =)
Ten Years From Now...
I'd be 35 and I hope I'm settled down at this time. "Settled" meaning I have a husband and probably a kid. I hope that at this time, I've already gone out of the country coz I really want to tour, if not the world, then hopefully just the nice and beautiful places out there that I only get to read in books and watch on TV.
Now, I tag Laurice, Ava Sharra, Krys, Ian and Meanne.
What I was like...
20 Years Ago...
28th of August 1985. I was 5 years old. It was my third month as a Kinder I student in Tay Tung High School (Chinese school) in Bacolod City, Negros Occidental. I can't remember that much but I knew I got this huge crush on Ricky Martin that I egged my Ma on buying the Menudo album for me. Locally, I admire Raymund Lauchengco (don't know if I got the spelling correct) that I have his poster in my study table in my room. *gag*
A few months before that I accidentally stabbed my left thigh with a pencil (Mongol) and the lead got stuck beneath my skin but it did not bleed. Right now, it's like a really pale mole on my left thigh.
Oh and I won a P500 from a drawing contest from Unicef (of course there was an age bracket/category). I remember drawing a man carrying a basketball and a woman carrying a flower and some bushes with roses on it. The winners from that was featured in the local paper that my Pa even cut it out and framed it. I don't know where that is right now but I got a small piano player from that win. I learned how to play "Twinkle, Twinkle", "The Birthday Song" and my fave of them all "Do-Re-Mi".
15 Years Ago...
28th of August 1990. I was 10 and a new transferee from the Chinese school (Tay Tung) to Univerity of Negros Occidental - Recoletos (a Catholic school also in Bacolod City) where my father worked as a college teacher at that time. My previous school was a bit advanced that I ended up always raising my hand to recite during classes coz I was in grade 4 then but the lessons they were taking, I already learned in grade 3. This made the teachers and this one cute guy notice me too! He was my crush then and I learned he had a crush on me too. But later on, I learned he kissed another girl so I was turned-off and decided to look for "more mature" men instead.
This was also my first time to learn Religion as a subject and I was even a part of the Glee Club of our Elementary. I sang during mass every Wednesdays (Immaculate Conception). I wonder why I'm not that "holy" now? Probably because all the innocence was gone. Hehe!
10 Years Ago...
28th of August 1995. I was 15 and my family had been living in Manila for about 3 years at this time. I was in third year high school in San Sebastian College - Recoletos (another Catholic school in Recto, Manila), where my father worked as a high school teacher. Due to being naughty and for not meeting what my mother expected of me when I graduated Elementary, I became a really serious student and have been the top one in the whole batch for 3 consecutive years (at this time ha). I tapped my geekiness during this stage.
I wasn't in the choir anymore but I started writing and became a Features Editor in the school paper, and eventually became the Associate Editor after turning down the Editor-in-Chief post (Naks!). I got some silly crushes, but at that time I thought I was really serious that I ended up embarrassing myself by having this love poem I wrote published in the school paper dedicated to my crush! (Nakakahiya talaga!)
I got a crush on this guy two years my senior and when I learned he'll be going to college in another university, I gave him this graduation card (through my friend coz I haven't had the guts to do it) and I think he knew who I was. It was sent anonymously. Now I realized how pathetic I was when it came to infatuation. *sheesh*
I've got my own group of friends/barkada and we even had a name for it. Each of us had our own "love interests" then. I also loved watching NCAA at this time since our school had been the champions for three consecutive years (we also became champs on the fourth year) and these were the times when PBA big leaguers like Rodney Santos, Rommel Adducul (who became a close friend), Banjo Calpito and Mark Macapagal (who was my batchmate and who played in the juniors' team) were still playing for our school.
5 Years Ago...
28th of August 2000. I was 20 and going through a rough time in CAMP (College of Allied Medical Professions) in University of the Philippines - Manila (P. Faura St.) as a B.S. Physical Therapy undergrad student. This was the internship time and I was worrying about getting my first and only 4.0 grade during my rotation in PGH. I knew then that my graduation would be delayed a year because I got an "Incomplete" grade. It turned out, I passed all the clinics and hospitals (and a special school) I went through. But I'd be doing an extra 4 weeks in PGH and my diploma will show I graduated in June 2001 (instead of May 2001) but I will march up the stage May 2002. It sucked but I was glad coz my parents didn't show me that it mattered. They didn't make a big deal out of it. I did. There was no more pressure from my parents but at that time, I pressured myself. I cried as I passed by the hospital chapel when I learned that I'd be delayed.
This was the time when the "chasing dreams" started. I've always dreamt about being chased by a stranger or an individual (I never got to discover who) but thankfully, the chase always got cut coz I wake up really tired and sweaty. I think the dreams just reflected the psychological situation that I'm in at this time.
This was also the time when I fell in love with Westlife's Mark Feehily! I already watched a Westlife concert and got the chance of seeing them up close and personal when they stayed at the Westin Philippine Plaza. Yeah, my sister and I were stalking them when we "forced" ourselves to have breakfast there. I never had a boyfriend at this time and I got this crush on a batchmate who was taking B.S. Speech Pathology but since I was so focused on graduating, I never had the time.
3 Years Ago...
28th of August 2002. I passed the PRC (Professional Regulations Commission) PT Board Exams! Eight months ago, I started working as a research assistant in a medical study in Manila Doctor's Hospital (U.N. Avenue). A couple of months before, I worked in the mornings and attended boards review class in the afternoon. It was where I met some good friends and (until this day) the only guy friend who shared a birthday with me (Hi Wes!). The "holiness" I lost in UP came back when I started attending the weekly mass in St. Jude (patron saint of hopeless cases) in Mendiola.
A week before the boards, I didn't go to work and sort-of locked myself in my room pressuring myself by placing stacks of reviewers and books on my bed and giving a time limit to each topic I review. It was harsh so the time limit was not followed. Hehe!
Last Year...
28th of August 2004. I was working in ICT, a callcenter in Makati. It was the second callcenter company I worked in and my third job. At that time, I don't have any plans of moving to another company yet and I was happy spending work days with friends and trying my best in doing the job. At this time, Lisse and I were officially together for over a year. I can't remember exactly what I did then but I bet it was just one of the routinary days in my boring existence.
Last Night...
27th of August 2005. I was asleep. I was supposed to attend Rommel's birthday party and since it was raining and I was not feeling well and I haven't had sleep, my Ma told me to rest. I woke up at about 9PM and watched the end part of Miss Teen USA and cleaned up and went back to sleep.
Today...
28th of August 2005. I'm just at home. It's a Sunday. I've been sneezing often today and I hope it's not a flu or something. I plan to go to mass later this afternoon.
Next Year...
Probably still working in a callcenter until my sister graduates from college. I hope it breezes through coz I want to live my life. I'm not getting younger...
Five Years From Now...
I would be 30 then. I hope at this time I'm working in a job that I like. Probably here or abroad it doesn't matter. I'd probably go back to school and study more (Masterals?) while working. Hopefully at this time, I have bought a house and lot already for my parents in the province where they can settle down and enjoy life. =)
Ten Years From Now...
I'd be 35 and I hope I'm settled down at this time. "Settled" meaning I have a husband and probably a kid. I hope that at this time, I've already gone out of the country coz I really want to tour, if not the world, then hopefully just the nice and beautiful places out there that I only get to read in books and watch on TV.
Now, I tag Laurice, Ava Sharra, Krys, Ian and Meanne.
Blue Sky
This is currently my "feel good" song. Whenever I'm having these cranky moods at work, I just sing this and I feel better. I love this song!
Blue sky
by Hale
When do stars fade their light?
Does the moon and the sun make it right
For you the world maybe
Like an endless storm chasing a mystery
Is there hate in your heart?
Does your body drop and tell you to stop
Loving you or loving me
When it all falls down you just sing with me
Coz there's a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it's all we need
Oh don't you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It's beautiful to be alive
It's wonderful to live a life
The sun is sure to shine
For you and me for everyone
So don't be sad it's just the start
Of a new beginning in your life
Rain will keep on pouring
Some things you can't control
And while the sun seems far and hard to hold
It will unfold
There will always be a blue sky
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
by Hale
When do stars fade their light?
Does the moon and the sun make it right
For you the world maybe
Like an endless storm chasing a mystery
Is there hate in your heart?
Does your body drop and tell you to stop
Loving you or loving me
When it all falls down you just sing with me
Coz there's a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it's all we need
Oh don't you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It's beautiful to be alive
It's wonderful to live a life
The sun is sure to shine
For you and me for everyone
So don't be sad it's just the start
Of a new beginning in your life
Rain will keep on pouring
Some things you can't control
And while the sun seems far and hard to hold
It will unfold
There will always be a blue sky
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Friday, August 26, 2005
If I Didn't Love You
When it's good I wanna spend my whole life lovin' you
But I'm tired
And you don't know how close I've come to leaving you
You try my patience
And you raise me to the wire
It takes every ounce of my will and desire
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like crazy
If I didn't love you baby
As much as I do
I'd just walk out the door
I couldn't take it anymore
I wouldn't put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
It's hard
But you won't give up 'till you
Push me to the wall
But I know
You're the only one who'll be there for me
When I call (oh yes you will)
I can't help believing
That it's worth it somehow
Cause I've worked too damn hard
To wanna give up now
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like crazy
If I didn't love you baby
As much as I do
I'd just walk out the door
I couldn't take it anymore
I wouldn't put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
Nah, If I didn't
If I didn't love you like I do
When you love someone
Nothings black or white
When the riptide runs
There's no wrong or right
I'll sail with you but I'll refuse to drown
So don't you take me down, down
Take me down down
Don't you take me down, down, down
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
I'd walk out that door
I don't need it anymore
Need to put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like I do ohhh
I'm not comin' back no more
No more
~*Tina Arena*~
I love listening to music after my shift on my way home. It's a change from all the chatter I listen to at work. Thank God someone invented the ear phones. Something happened this morning. I never thought hearing this song again will give me goosebumps. It's an old song but since I couldn't relate to it before, it was just one of those love songs. Now that I could relate to it, it felt as if I'd written it. Weird feeling.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
so little time
Since Monday, I haven't had a decent sleep. I found myself paler than normal. I don't want to take iron supplements because I always feel constipated after taking them. I just need sleep. But I can't. It's too noisy here since some men are working on the road in front of our apartment again.
Plus, for the past week, my sister and I bought three new books (sale! three books off my wishlist!) and I haven't had the time to finish even one. This is tragic.
I got the 2005 paperback edition of this book (so the cover is different than the picture shown):
Due to sisterly demands, we also got to buy these:
Magical Worlds of Harry Potter
Magical Worlds of The Lord of the Rings
Due to budget restraints I can't buy all the books in my wishlist so I'm just hoping there will be another book sale one of these days (months?). Now, I just wish I have the time to relax, unwind and curl up in bed with a good book. :)
By the way, I added the word verification feature on my comments. I know not a lot of people comment here (hehe!) but I don't like unwanted comments to spam their way in my blog. :)
Plus, for the past week, my sister and I bought three new books (sale! three books off my wishlist!) and I haven't had the time to finish even one. This is tragic.
I got the 2005 paperback edition of this book (so the cover is different than the picture shown):
Due to sisterly demands, we also got to buy these:
Magical Worlds of Harry Potter
Magical Worlds of The Lord of the Rings
Due to budget restraints I can't buy all the books in my wishlist so I'm just hoping there will be another book sale one of these days (months?). Now, I just wish I have the time to relax, unwind and curl up in bed with a good book. :)
By the way, I added the word verification feature on my comments. I know not a lot of people comment here (hehe!) but I don't like unwanted comments to spam their way in my blog. :)
Monday, August 22, 2005
curses curses
Last night, I got an SMS message from a friend who told me and I quote: "Mark Feehily is F*ing gay!" I can't say I was surprised coz I have always suspected that he is. Like Stephen in Boyzone, there is always this one member of a boyband who would turn out to be gay. When all his band members started marrying women and he got left out, my gaydar was alerted.
Westlife's Mark: I'm Gay and Proud
Mark is one of the my dream guys and I was just disappointed that my suspicions were right. I've always known I have this tendency... this curse of falling for men who turn out to be gay. I've had this since I was in high school. Where have all the (gorgeous) straight men gone?!
Kevin McDaid of V
picture taken from this site
I have nothing against Mark being gay. Deep inside, I've always known he is and he will still remain as one of the men I most admire but would never have. Now, I'm thinking of having a sex change and take steriods to have a body like Kevin's.
Of course, I'm just kidding. :)
Mark Feehily in Manila
taken May 2001
Westlife's Mark: I'm Gay and Proud
Mark is one of the my dream guys and I was just disappointed that my suspicions were right. I've always known I have this tendency... this curse of falling for men who turn out to be gay. I've had this since I was in high school. Where have all the (gorgeous) straight men gone?!
Kevin McDaid of V
picture taken from this site
I have nothing against Mark being gay. Deep inside, I've always known he is and he will still remain as one of the men I most admire but would never have. Now, I'm thinking of having a sex change and take steriods to have a body like Kevin's.
Of course, I'm just kidding. :)
Mark Feehily in Manila
taken May 2001
Sunday, August 21, 2005
what's the point?
Some say it's the journey that matters more than the destination. Some say otherwise.
I have been looking forward to this time of the month. As I woke up, I never noticed any exciting changes in my life. Then I realized that the past 2 weeks went by and since I was looking forward to this day, those days breezed by so fast I never got to do anything special. There was even nothing to blog about. Probably 5 years from now, I'd forgot what I ever did August of 2005.
So, I'm confused. If I was to enjoy everyday as it comes, then I shouldn't have opened a savings account and think about preparing for the future. I should have partied night and day as if it were my last day on earth. So, where would I draw the line between enjoying life as it passes by from preparing for tomorrow?
I have been looking forward to this time of the month. As I woke up, I never noticed any exciting changes in my life. Then I realized that the past 2 weeks went by and since I was looking forward to this day, those days breezed by so fast I never got to do anything special. There was even nothing to blog about. Probably 5 years from now, I'd forgot what I ever did August of 2005.
So, I'm confused. If I was to enjoy everyday as it comes, then I shouldn't have opened a savings account and think about preparing for the future. I should have partied night and day as if it were my last day on earth. So, where would I draw the line between enjoying life as it passes by from preparing for tomorrow?
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
can you keep a secret?
Last week, my Ma told me that there's someone from Florida who will be calling my mobile phone to interview me for that PT job she wanted me to apply for. Read this post to refresh your memory.
Sunday morning at about 7 o'clock, my mobile's ringing woke me up. There was no number on the caller ID, just (no number) showing on the LCD, I turned off my phone and went back to sleep. After a couple of hours, I turned on my phone and got a text message that I got 7 missed calls from that line. The same thing happened the next day at about the same time, I turned it off too and got 4 missed calls after I turned it on. I never really thought about it when I got another call this morning, at about 10:30AM. Now, my caller ID showed a phone from the US and I suddenly remembered what my Ma told me. I just stepped in the shower at that time and I was in no mood for a "friendly chit-chat" with some foreigner (I spent 8 hours and a half at work talking to foreigners!). So, I ignored it. If that decision ruined my chances of working abroad, then so be it. But I don't think it will be all there is in my life.
I haven't told my Ma about this, so it's just between us. Shhh... :)
Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net
You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy
"Sleeps with Butterflies"
~*Tori Amos*~
Sunday morning at about 7 o'clock, my mobile's ringing woke me up. There was no number on the caller ID, just (no number) showing on the LCD, I turned off my phone and went back to sleep. After a couple of hours, I turned on my phone and got a text message that I got 7 missed calls from that line. The same thing happened the next day at about the same time, I turned it off too and got 4 missed calls after I turned it on. I never really thought about it when I got another call this morning, at about 10:30AM. Now, my caller ID showed a phone from the US and I suddenly remembered what my Ma told me. I just stepped in the shower at that time and I was in no mood for a "friendly chit-chat" with some foreigner (I spent 8 hours and a half at work talking to foreigners!). So, I ignored it. If that decision ruined my chances of working abroad, then so be it. But I don't think it will be all there is in my life.
I haven't told my Ma about this, so it's just between us. Shhh... :)
Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net
You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy
"Sleeps with Butterflies"
~*Tori Amos*~
Sunday, August 14, 2005
close to Earth
A few days ago, I got this message through my mobile's SMS:
Planet Mars will be brightest in the night sky starting August. It will look large as full moon to the naked eye. This will culminate August 27 when Mars comes within 34.65 million miles .of Earth. Be sure to watch the sky, August 27, Saturday, 12:30AM (after midnight of 26th). It will look like the Earth has two moons. The next time Mars comes this close will be 2287. Share this with your loved-ones and friends as NO ONE alive will ever see it again.
Isn't this cool? According to this site:
At the beginning of August, Mars will rise in the east at 10 p.m. and reach its azimuth at about 3 a.m.
More info about this phenomenon here.
another tag!
This time it's from Jennie.
To do these little questionnaire brought to you by the number Se7en!
Seven things that scare me...
1. Death of a loved-one
2. Dark alleys
3. Dreaded diseases
4. Poverty
5. Biting insects
6. Losing my eyesight or hearing
7. Snakes
Seven things I like most...
1. Blogging
2. Surfing the net
3. Shopping
4. Books
5. Movies
6. Music
7. Chocolates! ;p
Seven important things in my room...
1. the book case with all my book collection
2. the bed, of course
3. my photo albums and a few photo CDs
4. my VCD collection
5. my cellphone
6. the dolphin night light (given by him)
7. the folders with all my important documents in it
Seven random facts about me...
1. I have a boyfriend for more than 2 years and my parents don't know about it.
2. I often fall in love with men who turn out to be homosexuals. :(
3. I never practiced my profession (ever) since I earned my Physical Therapy license.
4. I don't like my job but I get paid well, so I don't have plans of resigning (yet).
5. I am a frustrated writer.
6. At 25, I don't know what to do with my life.
7. I treasure my friends, but sometimes I prefer to be alone.
Seven things I plan to do before I die...
1. Travel around the world.
2. Lose weight and reach my target weight.
3. Buy a house and lot in the province for my parents.
4. Get a Masters Degree.
5. Live in my own suburban home.
6. Donate anonymously in a charity for educating and/or feeding children.
7. Be a mother.
Seven things that I CAN do...
1. Sing (carry a tune, yeah).
2. Multitask. I learned that since college and apply it in my job now.
3. Walk really fast (without meaning to). I can get to my house from my office in about 45 minutes to an hour by walking!
4. Stay in front of a computer for 10 straight hours.
5. Spend an entire day in my room.
6. Watch a movie alone.
7. Stay awake for 24 straight hours.
Seven things that I CAN'T do...
1. I can't swim.
2. I can't ride a rollercoaster without getting really dizzy to the point of almost throwing up.
3. I can't stand annoying people.
4. I can't seem to lose weight. :(
5. I can't help but be sarcastic.
6. I can't sleep well without taking a bath first.
7. I can't shoot a decent shot of basketball.
Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex...
1. Wit
2. Charm
3. Sense of humour
4. Good listening skills
5. "Manly" scent
6. Talent (music or art or writing)
7. Soulful eyes
Seven things that I say the most...
1. Fuck!
2. Shit!
3. Yaiks!
4. Uy!
5. Fotah!
6. Chuva
7. Astig!
Seven celebrity crushes...
1. Orlando Bloom
2. Mark Feehily
3. Prince William
4. Johnny Depp
5. Sean Biggerstaff
6. Henry Cavill
7. Stanislav Ianevski
Seven people I want to tag...
1. Krys
2. Laurice
3. Jezza
4. Wackow
5. Meann
6. Ian
7. Ava Sharra
To do these little questionnaire brought to you by the number Se7en!
Seven things that scare me...
1. Death of a loved-one
2. Dark alleys
3. Dreaded diseases
4. Poverty
5. Biting insects
6. Losing my eyesight or hearing
7. Snakes
Seven things I like most...
1. Blogging
2. Surfing the net
3. Shopping
4. Books
5. Movies
6. Music
7. Chocolates! ;p
Seven important things in my room...
1. the book case with all my book collection
2. the bed, of course
3. my photo albums and a few photo CDs
4. my VCD collection
5. my cellphone
6. the dolphin night light (given by him)
7. the folders with all my important documents in it
Seven random facts about me...
1. I have a boyfriend for more than 2 years and my parents don't know about it.
2. I often fall in love with men who turn out to be homosexuals. :(
3. I never practiced my profession (ever) since I earned my Physical Therapy license.
4. I don't like my job but I get paid well, so I don't have plans of resigning (yet).
5. I am a frustrated writer.
6. At 25, I don't know what to do with my life.
7. I treasure my friends, but sometimes I prefer to be alone.
Seven things I plan to do before I die...
1. Travel around the world.
2. Lose weight and reach my target weight.
3. Buy a house and lot in the province for my parents.
4. Get a Masters Degree.
5. Live in my own suburban home.
6. Donate anonymously in a charity for educating and/or feeding children.
7. Be a mother.
Seven things that I CAN do...
1. Sing (carry a tune, yeah).
2. Multitask. I learned that since college and apply it in my job now.
3. Walk really fast (without meaning to). I can get to my house from my office in about 45 minutes to an hour by walking!
4. Stay in front of a computer for 10 straight hours.
5. Spend an entire day in my room.
6. Watch a movie alone.
7. Stay awake for 24 straight hours.
Seven things that I CAN'T do...
1. I can't swim.
2. I can't ride a rollercoaster without getting really dizzy to the point of almost throwing up.
3. I can't stand annoying people.
4. I can't seem to lose weight. :(
5. I can't help but be sarcastic.
6. I can't sleep well without taking a bath first.
7. I can't shoot a decent shot of basketball.
Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex...
1. Wit
2. Charm
3. Sense of humour
4. Good listening skills
5. "Manly" scent
6. Talent (music or art or writing)
7. Soulful eyes
Seven things that I say the most...
1. Fuck!
2. Shit!
3. Yaiks!
4. Uy!
5. Fotah!
6. Chuva
7. Astig!
Seven celebrity crushes...
1. Orlando Bloom
2. Mark Feehily
3. Prince William
4. Johnny Depp
5. Sean Biggerstaff
6. Henry Cavill
7. Stanislav Ianevski
Seven people I want to tag...
1. Krys
2. Laurice
3. Jezza
4. Wackow
5. Meann
6. Ian
7. Ava Sharra
Friday, August 12, 2005
why not?
My mother has been bothering me (again) about applying for that FCCPT thingie! I don't understand why she has to force me to be a PT and work abroad. It has been years of waiting and dozens of applications and interviews with different placement agencies.
So, what does she want me to do?! Argh!!! If fate does not give me that opportunity, why force myself on it? Might as well move on with my life.
*breathes deeply*
I got home yesterday a few minutes before 10 AM. It was raining as usual. It has been for more than a week now. I feel thankful for the rain, at least it makes sleeping during the day more relaxing... more normal. I remember taking off my shoes and donning my slippers. Then I remember lying down the bed and closing my eyes to rest them for a minute or two. The next thing I know, it's 4:30PM and my body felt icky. I needed a bath. I fell asleep with my work clothes on and even my slippers on. (I had my feet dangling on the side of the bed.) Then my stomach grumbled. I was hungry. I went downstairs and did my usual routine-- the one I'm supposed to do at about 10 in the morning. After a couple of hours, I forgot about the internet and the prime time TV program I wanted to watch and stole two more hours of sleep.
If that's not exhaustion. I don't know what that is. And they say life is easy. Hah.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Wake Me Up When September Ends
*Green Day*
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when september ends
...
- We cannot afford to start processing the credentialing and visa screening. The fees are even in friggin' US dollars!
- No one (not even relatives) bothers and will bother to cover the expenses or sponsor me to go there. (Oh yes, I have tried, and failed several times. Not even with my puppy-dog eyes). =)
- My PRC license, TOEFL and TSE are ALL expired. More $$ to pay for the fees in order to retake the exams.
- I have earned my license for three years now and never practiced my profession since I have only an option to volunteer and as a breadwinner, I have to earn money. Most openings abroad need therapists with work experiences.
Reasons why I don't want to pursue the application right now:
So, what does she want me to do?! Argh!!! If fate does not give me that opportunity, why force myself on it? Might as well move on with my life.
*breathes deeply*
I got home yesterday a few minutes before 10 AM. It was raining as usual. It has been for more than a week now. I feel thankful for the rain, at least it makes sleeping during the day more relaxing... more normal. I remember taking off my shoes and donning my slippers. Then I remember lying down the bed and closing my eyes to rest them for a minute or two. The next thing I know, it's 4:30PM and my body felt icky. I needed a bath. I fell asleep with my work clothes on and even my slippers on. (I had my feet dangling on the side of the bed.) Then my stomach grumbled. I was hungry. I went downstairs and did my usual routine-- the one I'm supposed to do at about 10 in the morning. After a couple of hours, I forgot about the internet and the prime time TV program I wanted to watch and stole two more hours of sleep.
If that's not exhaustion. I don't know what that is. And they say life is easy. Hah.
Wake Me Up When September Ends
*Green Day*
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends
Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when september ends
...
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
I got tagged!
Ulan tagged me. So, here goes:
1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there's no one around you?
I read. I love reading. I can read the whole day, even if there are people around me. I also listen to music, sometimes I sing along with it and sometimes I get sentimental with the songs. I go online and write in my blog or surf the net and read other people's blogs and read some emails. I watch TV or if there's no good movie or music videos on cable, I rent and watch VCD's.
2. What lowers your stress/ blood pressure/ anxiety level?
A short-time remedy for me is deep breathing. I am so sensitive and moody that I easily get irritated or affected with the tiniest things. I just inhale all the (hopefully) fresh oxygen I can get and slowly exhale the carbon dioxide. This is also more effective when I close my eyes while doing this bit of pulmonary exercise. Some long-term remedies are reading, listening to music and sleeping. The last one sure helps a lot especially after my shift at work. I rarely do this nowadays, but I love walking too. Walking for about 30 to 45 minutes straight with my comfy rubber shoes and loose shirt and shorts. I love the sweaty feel after a good walk and this sure makes drinking icy cold water a really delicious experience. =)
3. Tag five friends and ask them to post it in theirs.
Ava Sharra, Rob, Kath, Jennie and Ivy.
1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there's no one around you?
I read. I love reading. I can read the whole day, even if there are people around me. I also listen to music, sometimes I sing along with it and sometimes I get sentimental with the songs. I go online and write in my blog or surf the net and read other people's blogs and read some emails. I watch TV or if there's no good movie or music videos on cable, I rent and watch VCD's.
2. What lowers your stress/ blood pressure/ anxiety level?
A short-time remedy for me is deep breathing. I am so sensitive and moody that I easily get irritated or affected with the tiniest things. I just inhale all the (hopefully) fresh oxygen I can get and slowly exhale the carbon dioxide. This is also more effective when I close my eyes while doing this bit of pulmonary exercise. Some long-term remedies are reading, listening to music and sleeping. The last one sure helps a lot especially after my shift at work. I rarely do this nowadays, but I love walking too. Walking for about 30 to 45 minutes straight with my comfy rubber shoes and loose shirt and shorts. I love the sweaty feel after a good walk and this sure makes drinking icy cold water a really delicious experience. =)
3. Tag five friends and ask them to post it in theirs.
Ava Sharra, Rob, Kath, Jennie and Ivy.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
chocolates and stuff
I did crave for that endorphin-releasing chocolate after watching the movie. I haven't read Roald Dahl's book, so I cannot make criticisms of some sort in comparison to the book. Love the glass elevator! Great effects! Of course, "two-thumbs up for Johnny Depp!" I am a fan and will always be a fan of this actor. :)
On to the more serious stuff... Tonight, we'll have some of our questions answered when the Operations Manager of the company will meet us and discuss the transition and transfer of this account from this company, where I currently work in, to an entirely new company. We, as employees, will be retained upon transfer (thank God!) and I am just hoping this change is for the better. I got some plans running in my mind for possibly new accounts right now (like medical transcription, where I can apply my medical knowledge). *cross fingers*
There is, at least, one good reason why it's nice to live in the Philippines. :)
Saturday, August 06, 2005
what's up?
Nothing.
Ok. Here are some random thoughts.
Today as the first day that I have to start this conservative treatment for an embarrassing medical problem that I have. I just came from the hospital for consultation. No, I won't elaborate on it. It's just for me to know. :)
For those curious, I haven't seen the kittens anymore. For the first day my Mama was checking the area if they are safe. Then they disappeared overnight. Probably the mother cat already took them to another safe hideout. Maybe I'll see them one of these days.
I'm renting again coz I wanted to have a faster internet connection. I'm planning to transfer all my pictures from my sony imagestation albums to a new public photobucket album since free membership from imagestation will only be extended until September. Too bad...
Finally, I have opened a savings account. I just wish I could maintain it. :)
Lost an hour of sleep yesterday because I watched MTV's Hanging Out which featured a 30-minute Q&A with Neil Gaiman. It was a delayed telecast. As usual, he was the master storyteller when he gave long answers to most questions. He is just so animated when he speaks! I miss seeing him and hearing his British accent! *sigh*
Lately, I have been seeing zilch on my Pinoy Top Blog counter. I guess since Gaimania is over, not too many people are dropping by here enough to make it to top 100 again. As far as I can remember my highest place was 72. *sniff*
Oh well, setting my competitiveness aside, I'm just glad it's finally the weekend. I can rest and I can go to the mall or maybe watch a movie... or maybe harrass my cousin-in-law for the Harry Potter book he promised my sis. :)
Ok. Here are some random thoughts.
Today as the first day that I have to start this conservative treatment for an embarrassing medical problem that I have. I just came from the hospital for consultation. No, I won't elaborate on it. It's just for me to know. :)
For those curious, I haven't seen the kittens anymore. For the first day my Mama was checking the area if they are safe. Then they disappeared overnight. Probably the mother cat already took them to another safe hideout. Maybe I'll see them one of these days.
I'm renting again coz I wanted to have a faster internet connection. I'm planning to transfer all my pictures from my sony imagestation albums to a new public photobucket album since free membership from imagestation will only be extended until September. Too bad...
Finally, I have opened a savings account. I just wish I could maintain it. :)
Lost an hour of sleep yesterday because I watched MTV's Hanging Out which featured a 30-minute Q&A with Neil Gaiman. It was a delayed telecast. As usual, he was the master storyteller when he gave long answers to most questions. He is just so animated when he speaks! I miss seeing him and hearing his British accent! *sigh*
Lately, I have been seeing zilch on my Pinoy Top Blog counter. I guess since Gaimania is over, not too many people are dropping by here enough to make it to top 100 again. As far as I can remember my highest place was 72. *sniff*
Oh well, setting my competitiveness aside, I'm just glad it's finally the weekend. I can rest and I can go to the mall or maybe watch a movie... or maybe harrass my cousin-in-law for the Harry Potter book he promised my sis. :)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
wild things!
We live in an apartment. We're letter C on a 7-door apartment complex, so we're situated in the middle. I don't know if it's the location or what but I notice that everyday, there are a lot of maya birds looking for food in front of our place. We have that space, some sort of a garage but too small to have a car fit in (if we have a car), where Mama does and hangs our laundry. Those birds, about 5 or so of them at a time, are always in front looking for food, so we see to it that every morning, we place small bits of pan de sal (bread) for them to eat.
Near the washing machine, there's small space where we place used footwear/slippers. We were surprised to see the cat (this cat that's always roaming around in the complex) and three new-born kittens. We don't know who owns this cat and since we are not cat enthusiasts, we were wondering what we should do. Animal shelters are not a big deal here, especially for non-purebred ones (askal/asong kalye or pusakal/pusang kalye). Oh well, if only you were here, I could have let you adopt these kittens.
kittens!
They're so cute! But I know we could not take care of them. I am not a cat person myself. So, Mama placed them in a container when the mommy cat went out to find food and placed them by the tree about 5 houses away from us. We relocated them and I just hope they survive.
litters!
Earlier at work, I heard this song. It's been a long time since I last heard this. For the first time, I was happy to be placed on hold by a customer service representative. This was the hold music and I was able to finish listening to this song when we were placed on hold. :)
"Crash And Burn"
~*Savage Garden*~
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
Near the washing machine, there's small space where we place used footwear/slippers. We were surprised to see the cat (this cat that's always roaming around in the complex) and three new-born kittens. We don't know who owns this cat and since we are not cat enthusiasts, we were wondering what we should do. Animal shelters are not a big deal here, especially for non-purebred ones (askal/asong kalye or pusakal/pusang kalye). Oh well, if only you were here, I could have let you adopt these kittens.
kittens!
They're so cute! But I know we could not take care of them. I am not a cat person myself. So, Mama placed them in a container when the mommy cat went out to find food and placed them by the tree about 5 houses away from us. We relocated them and I just hope they survive.
litters!
Earlier at work, I heard this song. It's been a long time since I last heard this. For the first time, I was happy to be placed on hold by a customer service representative. This was the hold music and I was able to finish listening to this song when we were placed on hold. :)
~*Savage Garden*~
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
one more day down
One Monday through. The first day of August has passed. Last night was not a great one. I'm just glad it's over. My career path is still as blurry as the Dead Marshes.
Since it's August, I'm hoping my upload limit in Multiply has been refreshed. Yay! I can now upload the pics although I still can't upload those videos. Darn. Oh well. Take it one blessing at a time I guess. Finally, here's the album and to help you remember, here's the entry.
Earlier, I was watching some elementary kids playing during their lunch break (with their school uniforms on). I just miss being a kid again-- with no worries in life... when every experience is an adventure... when every little thing is appreciated. I wonder how it feels not to be jaded.
One more day down
Everybody has those days
Where one soft sweet song's
Just enough to clear my head
Fall on real life
Is anybody left there sane?
If we slide on over and accept fate
Then it's bound to be a powerful thing
If it's just that you're weak
Can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy
Just nursing this ghost of chance
The fiction, the romance
And the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
~Matchbox20, "Black and White People"
Since it's August, I'm hoping my upload limit in Multiply has been refreshed. Yay! I can now upload the pics although I still can't upload those videos. Darn. Oh well. Take it one blessing at a time I guess. Finally, here's the album and to help you remember, here's the entry.
Earlier, I was watching some elementary kids playing during their lunch break (with their school uniforms on). I just miss being a kid again-- with no worries in life... when every experience is an adventure... when every little thing is appreciated. I wonder how it feels not to be jaded.
Everybody has those days
Where one soft sweet song's
Just enough to clear my head
Fall on real life
Is anybody left there sane?
If we slide on over and accept fate
Then it's bound to be a powerful thing
If it's just that you're weak
Can we talk about it
It's gettin' so damn creepy
Just nursing this ghost of chance
The fiction, the romance
And the Technicolor dreams
Of black and white people
~Matchbox20, "Black and White People"
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