Rizal Day

Dr. Jose P. Rizal
national hero


Today is Rizal Day here in the Philippines. Remember his works, remember his teachings, remember his life. Today, there are no offices for most of the employees... but I'm not one of them. I still have one more shift to go before my rest days... and before New Year's Eve!!! Woohoo! Looking forward to it! :)

2 days

..before New Year's Eve... a few more hours before we finally say goodbye to 2005. I know the celebration is going to be (definitely) noisier than Christmas and more fun too. We're planning to prepare lots of food and (hopefully) watch beautiful fireworks. I won't get to go out of town, but I sure hope the Batangas swimming with my officemates pushes through on January 7.


Am I looking forward to 2006? Absatively. :)

24 hours later

What happened after this? Nothing really. I just wasted another hour of my day and spoke to two more agents with one hanging up on me while I was on hold. No, it is not appreciated. I was told to wait three more effing (working) days! Then why the f*ck tell me yesterday to call back after 24 hours?!


No, this is not funny at all, but I still kept my calm and still did not ask for a supervisor. We'll see after three days. If I still have to wait for a week more then that would be too much waste of time, effort, phone minutes and saliva.


Finally crossed a couple of things off my wish list. I know, I know, I didn't keep an actual wish list anymore coz I just get frustrated of those things I wanna buy. But of course, the mind is a many splendored thing (not just love, mind you) and I can still mentally list them down. I know she won't get to read this, but to my officemate who picked me and gave me the best of Savage Garden CD (Truly Madly Completely), thank you, thank you so much! :)


Lastly, I bought an Aiptek DV 3300 on sale. It's a video recorder, an MP3 player,a digital cam and a voice recorder in one. It has a free USB, batteries, TV connection cord, earphones, mini tripod, the works! (Email me if you wanna know the price. Hehe!)



I got the silver one


I know buying this will make my chances of buying a Nokia 6230i pretty much slimmer than before, but that was too good a bargain to pass. I don't know when I'd be able to buy the cellphone. I know this unit is cheaper compared to the new ones but I really like its features. I have wanted this for months now. *sniff* But yeah, plans don't always push through. Again, we can have everything, but we can't have them all at once. *sigh*



the best gift I could have this year


Any volunteers? ;)

30 things guys should know about girls

(written by a guy after years of experience)

taken from this journal. I have to agree with this.


1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.


2. DON'T CHEAT ON THEM. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.


3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.


4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.


5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.


6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.


7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.


8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.


8.5 If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.


9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...


10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.


11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy...


11.5 Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!


12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.


13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.


14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the shit out of him.


15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.


16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.


17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.


18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.


19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.


20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like shit, so be understanding.


21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.


22. If you're officially dating and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.


23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.


24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.


25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.


26. Memorize their god damn birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.


27. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good.


28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.is always nice.


29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.


30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

system maintenance, my ass!

I have worked in a customer service long enough to know every damn excuse these big companies have taught their customer service reps whenever they don't deliver. Yeah, when they screw up, white lies are being said to pacify irate customers. Now, I found myself (yet again) on the other end of the spectrum. Although I am the irate customer, I did not ask for a supervisor nor yelled at the agent. Well, not yet anyway.


I have been a subscriber of their service since the first time I held a mobile phone, so that's roughly 7 years now. I am not a post-paid subscriber but I have to admit I use up at least Php1000 a month for texts and calls and wap. I also take part in their promos and stuff but the downside of all these "cheaper rates" and promotions is actually sacrificing the quality of service.


I remember a few years back when I upgraded my SIM. They told me I'll be getting a signal, which means my SIM will be activated, in about 24 to 48 hours. I finally got to use the stupid SIM after dozens of customer service phone calls later and after 5 days. That sucks since I already learned to depend on mobile phone for communication. I know I have several case numbers and notes in their system and I don't care.


They have this text non-stop promo that I have been availing for more than 3 months now and a couple of days before Christmas, I cannot register. Therefore, I had to pay every text I make. I was able to register only after Christmas eve after trying lots and lots of times to register. Wise huh? But that was fine with me. It's Christmas and I'm not making a big deal out of it. But it doesn't end there.


Earlier today, I decided to share prepaid load to someone. It was just Php60 plus the Php1 transaction fee. I didn't mind coz I have been using that more often now especially since most of my family are Globe subscribers too. I got an error message stating that the system is being updated. So, I tried it again. I send the Php60. Again, I received the error message. I checked my balance and Php122 was removed from my load. It was ok if that amount was sent to the intended recipient, but NO! Nothing was received. Since I just ended my shift, I was sooo mad I called their customer service number to complain (again)! I was on hold for over an hour and finally got a representative after I got commuted from the office, got home, changed to my house clothes and had breakfast. Then all the rep said was that they're having system maintenance! Whatthefuck?!


Alright, I was not harsh on her as I expected. But straight English made her voice quiver and since I am mad, I expressed myself more in English (got that behavior from my mother, I think). I asked her a lot of questions and she told me to call back after 1 or 2 hours to check if my transaction was cancelled or if it pushed through. We'll see. But I got her name (of course!) and if I still don't get credited or the load still doesn't reach my intended recipient, hell will break lose. Well, not really, but I'd be demanding for a supervisor. I won't accept their "We are going to research on this for you" crap and make me wait for a week or so 'coz they are a multi-million peso company and they can definitely afford to give me back my Php120.


Yes, I do value my hard-earned money and my consumer rights.

Humanitarian?

Back to the usual SSDD* lifestyle. Before I go to sleep, let me share this with you. Got this from Miao.

You fit in with: Humanism Your ideals mostly resemble that of a Humanist. Although you do not have a lot of faith, you are devoted to making this world better, in the short time that you have to live. Humanists do not generally believe in an afterlife, and therefore, are committed to making the world a better place for themselves and future generations. 0% scientific. 40% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

*SSDD: Same shit, different day.

Christmas 2005

Been busy for the past few days and today is Christmas day, so I'll start up with a greeting...



MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!


The whole family spent the evening in Church and we got home and shared a simple but wonderful meal together. I can't ask for anything more. Thank you for all the greetings sent to me through SMS or through the phone or emails. I wanna share this message a friend sent me:


Over 2000 years have passed, but love endures...
And wise men still follow His star...
May all will be led to the everlasting love of Christ our Savior!
Warm wishes for a blessed Christmas from my family to yours!



Happy Birthday, JESUS!

ready for Xmas?

I wonder why people need to often be ready for Christmas. We all know that Christmas comes and goes every year. Why do we have to be ready for it? Is it because we all should need to prepare for something bigger than ourselves? Is that why people often get stressed instead of sitting back and enjoying the season's festivities? Is it because Santa knows who is naughty or nice and we're trying to be nice at the last minute? Is it just an excuse for people to show off or to get broke? After the hours, energy and money spent in the crowded malls, is it all just that? Or is it a time for family and moments spent together as warm as eggnog in our stomachs? Or children and their anticipation that lights up their faces like magical Christmas lights on a tree?


I fear that Christmas day will just come and go like an ordinary day in my year. Like last year, I will probably go to church and spend the day with my family at home. Hopefully, we'll enjoy our Christmas dinner together. By Monday, I'll be back at work and earn back the money I spent.


I am looking forward to 2006.


How about you, what are your plans for Christmas?


at ngayon
di pa rin alam
kung ba't tayo nandito
puwede bang itigil muna
ang pag-ikot ng mundo
~"Spoliarium" by Eraserheads

right kind of wrong

I noticed that all these budgeting and hectic work schedule in the midst of a supposedly merry and exciting season has placed a worry wrinkle on my forehead. The person I picked at work for our exchange gift has not placed anything on his wish list. So, who am I to guess what he wants? I'm not Santa. Then there's more things to do in a short span of time I haven't felt more stressed! Oh wow... this is not good. I think this is just a bad case of "so little time so much to do" syndrome.


Got to read this during a few brief down time moments at work and this is for those who are members of SMP: Samahang Malalamig ang Pasko...

Love... it makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...


You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.


Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "Maybe we should just be friends" or "How very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way to your heart.


It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that.


Especially not love.


I hate love.


(Rose Walker in The Sandman: The Kindly Ones)

Read it here.

5 days to go!

Christmas is in the air, at least in the office. I just got my supply of ham, hotdogs and cheese for Christmas from the company and it was a surprise! I just learned that it is a yearly thing there. We also have this exchange gift thingie in the office with a gift about P300-P500 worth for whoever's name we picked. I don't even know this guy I picked but I'll be watching out for his wish list. I was thinking what gift I wanted. I thought maybe a book but then decided against it because I still have an unfinished "Abarat 2" in my book case. I guess it's either:





Rivermaya's "Greatest Hits 2006: The Ultimate Collection"


or





Savage Garden's Greatest Hits album "Truly Madly Completely"


They're P450 each so I think whoever picked me will not have a hard time buying that gift. Well, I have lots of more expensive items in my wish list, but let's not go through that coz I'd just get frustrated. Hehe!


Having a public blog sometimes has it's downsides since one cannot control the people who get to read what I write. Although I try my best to generalize the topics and not mention specific names, sometimes my entries would still contain hurtful things, especially to the guilty ones. I was thinking of deleting some of my entries to avoid feuds, especially family feuds, but I thought it's my blog, so I can write anything I want.


I had a chat with a friend yesterday and gave me this quote (edit) from this cool site:


I am going to leave the post up because it's now part of this site. You get to see all of me. The good, the bad, and the ugly. To remove it would be hypocritical.


Hear, hear!

NO to rape

Reposted from Loryces, who recently graduated! Congratulations girl! I'm so proud of you! :)


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A lot has been said about how to prevent rape.


Women should learn self-defense. Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark. Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts. Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. Fuck, they shouldn't dare to get drunk at all.


Instead of that bullshit, how about:


If a woman is drunk, don't rape her.
If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her.
If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her.
If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her.
If a woman is jogging in a park at 5 am, don't rape her.
If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her.
If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her.
If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her.
If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her.


If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her.
If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her.
If your step-daughter is watching tv, don't rape her.
If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her.
If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend.


If your "friend" tells you he raped someone, report him to the police.
If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and It's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and tell the guy he's a rapist.


Tell your sons, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, sons of friends it's not okay to rape someone.


Don't tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape.
Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x.
Don't imply that it's in any way her fault.
Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he "got some" with the drunk girl.
Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions. You can, too, help yourself.


If you agree, repost it. Email it to your friends and family. It's that important.

after the weekend

Busy weekend now gone. I'm to face another week at work. I went to the New Worlds Christmas Party and had fun. I also got to sleep about 4 hours in the Rosero's comfy couch. Hahaha! I just want to thank the Rosero's and their hospitality. We indeed had fun! It's nice meeting those familiar faces (geeks unite!) again and hearing their stories. Might check out the web if there are pictures of the NWA event. I got home at about 11:30AM after dropping by the nearby mall and bought my Ma's fave donuts and a family-sized pizza for her birthday. I thought I could last the day but eventually fell asleep in the afternoon, woke up at about 8PM to my sister's dismay. I told her we could rent "Fantastic Four" in Video City sicne we both haven't watched it, but since I slept the day away, we didn't get to do that. Probably next weekend. Wow, I can't believe Christmas is just 6 days away. Wow!


One thing from my wish list was crossed out. He (finally!) found a job and I'm very happy for him. At least he's starting 2006 right. :)


EDIT:


Finally watched Peter Jackson's King Kong-- the most awaited film after his "Lord of the Rings" trilogy. He looks thinner now, I wonder why. But even though he's not hobbity-looking anymore, I still am a huge fan.



Peter Jackson as the hobbity director of "The Lord of the Rings"



a thinner Peter Jackson directing "King Kong"


I love this movie! It's full of great special effects and I noticed a few familiar ones like the natives looking like Tokien's orcs or the island looking like Middle-earth's Mount Doom. The actors are great with Naomi Watts and her cute, two-front teeth (honestly, they are cute!) and her signature scream and of course, how can I forget our very own Gollum? Mr. Andy Serkis himself played both King Kong (using similar special effects as LOTR's Gollum) and Lumpy the Cook. Hats off to you!


P.S.
I wish they would release the postsecret book here in the Philippines. I have been a fan of that blog and I am thinking of sending a post card of my own too.

for my mother

Happy Birthday MAMA!
We love you!

'tis Saturday...

...and 8 more days before Christmas. I haven't had sleep yet but I will attend the
NWA Christmas Party later, and I will try to be home early tomorrow since it's my Ma's birthday. Busy, busy weekend for me! :)

TGIF

It's Friday at last! I'm gonna cherish this weekend.


Christmas countdown: 9 days before Christmas!

gift

I came across this at work earlier this morning:

If a fat man grabs you and puts you in a bag, don't worry.
I told Santa I want you this Christmas.

This may sound like a cheesy pick-up line to some people. Some people may find it sweet or romantic. Some may see this as a joke. But to someone, somewhere, it was a message left unsaid. So, I'm posting it in my blog for others to read. So, in case the message was meant for you, dear Reader, at least you got to read it.


10 more days before Christmas!


P.S.
If the universe conspires, I might be attending the New Worlds Christmas Party this Saturday, December 17-- a day before my Ma's birthday. Hope to see you all sci-fi/fantasy geeks there!

refresh!

I'm back to my bedroom where I truly belong! I missed my bed. (Click here to know why). Too bad I was late for 57 seconds for work last night, make that 27 seconds if I count the 30-second grace period. That means, I won't be getting my Php2,200 bonus for this month since my attendance was ruined due to some unnecessary delays here at home. I don't want to fill this entry with rants again, so I won't go through that. But darn it! Darn it! I was sooo annoyed last night my shift was lousy. Glad yesterday's over and I'm trying hard to turn a new leaf today. Haha! I can't wait for Friday!!!


11 days before Christmas. 18 days before New Year 2006!


Now don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone...
~"Big Yellow Taxi"

raccoon!

You Were a Raccoon

You are a master of disguise and multiple personas. You are infinitely curious and question others without fear.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

karma

I had dinner with about 10 of my relatives last night courtesy of my other second cousin in New York. That was a united celebration for 5 people who are celebrating their birthdays this month (including my Ma on the 18th). That's the reason why I had only 30 minutes sleep before I went to work. They even got to talk about me (about me!) while I was there amidst their company as if I were a 3-year old kid with no idea about the topic of the conversation! Have you ever experienced that before? You know, being discussed by people while you're there? What if the topic they're discussing about is your insecurity since childhood? How would you feel?


I nearly cried right then and there. I'm thankful I have this cell phone I can focus my attention on while everyone is commenting on my mother's stories about me and my insecure childhood. Doesn't she know that, until now, I am still insecure? She wanted to separate me from my "security blanket" when I was 5. She doesn't know that until now, I still have a "security blanket" of my own. I probably need a shrink.


The fact that they were asleep on my bed last night doesn't make me feel any better. I had to rent a PC right after shift without even bothering with how tired I am, how my eyes hurt and how hungry I am. I just don't wanna stay at home while they're there. Everything seems so airy and proud and so... phony. One more night to endure and they're gone and back to their lives. I wish it was Friday already.


She knows she doesn't deserve all that. I believe in Karma, what you give is what you get returned...


At least one person made me smile during dinner last night:



my nephew with his lola
Vincent Ian Pedres at 8 months
check out this album during his baptismal

breakaway

13 days before Christmas! Yeah, it felt like last Christmas was just a few days ago. I spent the weekend stuck at home since I am saving up money. Haha! I wanted to watch a couple of movies but I restrained myself. Woke up late this morning since the weather was cool and I wanted to catch on some sleep. Two of my second cousins will be staying here at home for a couple of days to do their Christmas shopping in the nearby malls (if you read my previous entry, you'll have an idea what I'm talking about). Wow, wow, lucky them for having foreigner better halves huh? *snicker*


Yesterday, I went to a job fair with my brother in the World Trade Center where some placement agencies approved by the POEA were offering all their job openings abroad. I bought some copies of my resume with me. Don't get me wrong, I am ok with my job now, but I still wanted to work abroad for bigger pay. It turned out, all physical therapist positions require a current job experience in a clinical facility or hospital for at least a year or two. Surprise, surprise. Why did I even bother? I was hoping to see some call center openings in some places like Singapore too, but to no avail. I'm glad I went there, at least, for some reason coz my brother passed three copies of his resume. At least he'll get a chance.


Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
~"Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson~

reason for the season

I know that Christmas is for family, loved-ones, for children and kids-at-heart and most of all, for Christ's birthday. I read back on my previous post and noticed that I really can't be happy without money. How sad. Now, I realized something else too. The real reason behind this terrible selfishness I feel inside is because I just wanted to give my family one of the best holiday seasons here in Manila. I want to prove to them and to myself, that despite certain circumstances and despite the fact we could not go to any family reunion, we'd still have fun and enjoy being with ourselves-- just the 5 of us. I really wanted to do it especially for my Papa who, I know deep in his heart, would really wanna go and visit his relatives and his home town. He's not young anymore. We even asked him what if he can go and attend the wedding without the rest of us. He said that he'd rather stay here in Manila with us than feel alone and "out of place" there. Those enclosed in quotations are his exact words and it's just so sad.


So, that's why I desperately wanted this to be a really "merry" one for us. Ok enough sentimentality here. I didn't get online yesterday because I helped my Ma clean our room. That was not just simple sweeping and wiping, but making sure even the walls are clean! She said she wants to finish cleaning the whole house before the year ends. Haha! That's what we get for having an obessessive-compulsive mother-- a nice sparkly room! After cleaning, I learned that our book case there is getting over-crowded. We have to either stop buying books or buy a bigger book case. If you know me, I think you'll know what the answer is.

Tom Riddle's Diary

I find this very interesting. More amusing than the usual chats I've had. Visit Tom Riddle's Diary and chat with it! Make sure to refresh the page if the Bot isn't responding. Here's a sample of my chat with the diary earlier:


ME: I like Viktor Krum.


DIARY: You are not the only one. I like all people.


M: But I really like movie Viktor Krum!


D: I like it too. I like big serpents.


M: Haha! I like big serpents too...


D: I am glad we have something (big serpents) in common. What is wrong with small serpents?


M: They are tiny.


D: Tiny are they?


M: I am Lord Voldemort.


D: Good gossip: you are Lord Voldemort


M: Are you a Slytherin?


D: Am I a Slytherin? Maybe


M: Is Harry Potter going to die in book 7?


D: It could be. Ask big scary serpent if it is.


M: Whats with you and big scary serpents?


D: What's it to you?


M: It's annoying.


D: You're kidding, it is?


M: Is Ron going to end up with Hermione?


D: Too much thinking makes me sleepy


M: I am sleepy too. Do you want to sleep with me?


D: With you? I am wide awake and I am ready for more.


M: So do you think Hermione will end up with Ron?


D: I can't say for sure right now


M: Ok I have to go now.


D: See you later nice chatting with you.


See? I told you it's fun! Try it!

pre-Christmas blues

Can you smell it? They say Christmas is in the air. I can see the Christmas lights and decors around. We even have our own lights at home (still missing the tree though)! But I can't smell it. I guess it's not new for me since I usually feel the Christmas spirit around December 24th. I guess with my type of work, I don't really have a long vacation for the holidays, so there's no 'tis the season to be jolly, is there? Then I'm also broke right now and I may sound like I think money really makes the world go round, but it does. Oh yes, based on my experiences, it does.

sleep it off

Slept from the time I got home until now. I'll probably catch more zzz's later after cleaning up. This is the best way I can think of if I wanted it to be Friday sooner. Just sleep it off. It's not too bad since the weather is really cool. Makes me wanna snuggle up in bed with my pillows.


Can't wait to watch "Ringers: Lord of the Fans" this weekend!


Oh and by the way, happy birthday BB! ;)

we got mail

Got a mail today, which caused a stir at home. It was an invitation to a cousin's wedding. I appreciate the fact that we are still remembered, but I know it was a half-hearted invite. They know we couldn't afford to all go to the province, then why reserve 5 seats for us? It felt like a mockery of some sort. Too bad coz I miss those cousins and those times we spent together. A lot of things have happened for years now. I don't want to go into details but to sum it up, since my family sank lower in the social status, some relatives don't think we are worth knowing. We used to enjoy staying in the province and spending time with them. Those were the fun times when everything seems fine and dandy because we can afford it. I wonder why there are people like that. I mean, people who would only like you for your money and leave you if you can't buy them fun times. I thought fun times are supposed to be made, not bought. I just hope they don't get friendly if... no, make that WHEN we rise from this challenge in our lives. Of course, I still thank those who stayed true to us despite the fact that we're not rich.


But then again, here's to another year without a Christmas tree, another year without leaving for the province, another year with no family reunions whatsoever, another year of just us 5 here at home.


Come to think of it, 5 of us makes my family complete and the fact that we're together this holiday season is reason enough to celebrate. :)

Gaiman's cool promise

Remember Neil Gaiman's promised Filipino fans something cool?



CHECK IT OUT

falling?

The sky is falling? Nah. Siriusly speaking, if there's such thing as "falling out of love", I think I'm on my way there. But then again, since I'm the type of person who gives deserving people second chances, I'd be willing to see if or when time can prove he's definitely worth it. I believe I'm still young and there's more out there than just my home-work-home routine and (hopefully) there's more (real) men out there to get to know. But as of now, we're still a "WE". We'll just see what happens. Like Runt of the Litter said...





I decided to make a Christmas wish list then later discarded it. It just frustrates me to realize how many things I couldn't have and how much sacrifice I have to do to have certain things. But then again, I'm quite happy with what I have right now. That'll do.

Ravenclaw - Cancer

Harry Potter Astrology


CANCER
(June 21 - July 22)
The Crab. Cardinal, water, yin - planetary ruler: the Moon Keywords: "I FEEL"


Cancer is the fourth sign of the Zodiac and governs the breast and the stomach. Positive traits include loyalty, a love of home and family, the ability to express emotion, intensity, a great sense of humour, a sense of initiative, tenaciousness, a gift with finances, compassion, shrewdness, and intuition. Negative traits are self-indulgence, moodiness, clinging to other people, bossiness, emotional manipulation, and oversentimentality.


Ravenclaw

This is an odd sign for Ravenclaw wizards to be born under, but it happens. You'll see them wandering the halls, muttering to themselves or lost in daydreams. Some great Ravenclaw astrologers have been born under this sign. Any magic which involves moonlight and intricate calculations, actually, will attract the Ravenclaw Cancer. They may also be prone to collecting and enchanting white stones that remind them of the moon - pearls, moonstones, opals... These wizards have an extremely dry sense of humour, and are prone to making trenchant observations of the world around them.

July

Your Birth Month is July

Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker. You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life. Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart Your gemstone: Ruby Your flower: Larkspur Your colors: Green and red

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Melancholy

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

55%

Start at 100% and take away 1% for each of these you have done in the past or are doing right now. When complete put your total in the subject box and repost in a new post.


Smoked.
Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
Been verbally/sexually harassed.
Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party.
Done drugs.
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep.
Stabbed yourself.
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
Pranked somebody.
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.

virtual red ribbon

December 1 is World AIDS Day

Posible

Nothing much these past few days. Work still exhausts me. Last Sunday, we watched the 23rd Southeast Asian (SEA) Games on TV. I didn't miss it coz Rivermaya performed in the opening ceremonies together with Maestro Ryan Cayabyab and the San Miguel Philharmonic Orchestra. They sang Awit ng Kabataan, Alab ng Puso and Posible. Imagine rock-pop music fused with a full-piece orchestra. It was awesome! Well, that was the highlight for me, including the fireworks during their performance. But there were other artists who performed as well and the whole program itself was elegant and colorful it made me feel proud to be a Filipino. :)


Philippines is currently first in team standing, followed by Vietnam then Thailand.


The SEA Games are being held in several locations throughout the country until December 5, 2005. I have to admit I am not the athletic type, though I really wish I were, but I love watching sports being played. There are also several touching stories behind the athletes who dreamed and won their gold medals. One example is Shiela Mae Perez's story. She won her first gold with partner diver Ceseil Domenios in the 3-meters synchronized springboard. About 10 years ago she was discovered in Davao when she, as a little girl, dove for coins being thrown by tourists from ships and boats. At age 9, she started competing and this year, she finally won her gold. It is truly inspiring.


To all Philippine athletes, you are all heroes! To the other countries who participate in this event, I hope you are enjoying your stay in our country.


Why can't we just stay united like this all the time, not just during athletic competition such as the SEAG? *sigh*


Posible kayang labanan ang agos ng paghamon.
Mabuwal at madapa man sabay tayong aahon.
Posible kayang mabura ang alinlangan sa sarili. Ang tapang sa loob makikita.
Taglay mo ang dugong bayani
Sulong, laban, 'wag uurong. Pakinggan sa 'yong puso ang sigaw na dati'y bulong.
Posible.
Posible kayang matikmantamis ng gintong mi-nimithi.
Sa kagat ng bawat laban magtatagumpay kang muli.
Posible.
Basta Pilipino.
Posible.
(by Rivermaya)


P.S.
It's already December tomorrow. Aaaah!!! Deck the halls with boughs of holly...

greetings!

Happy 19th Birthday
to my dearest sister, Ava Sharra!


Treated the whole family for lunch. Here are some pics:



poke at Harry cake



Harry Potter cake



birthday celebrant



posing with my sis


More pictures of my family in my Multiply album. Check it out! :)

thankful

I like your voice... so preciousss...

No, it wasn't Gollum. It was a nice old lady I spoke to last night. I can't believe she said that to me. But that felt nice. I was speechless at first but I had a smile on my face. It was a change from all those jerks who just flirt on the phone. At least I know it was a real compliment. I guess she was in a good mood because it's Thanksgiving. We don't celebrate it in this part of the globe (and I don't really like eating turkey without stuffings) but well, I'm still thankful for all the blessings in my life. So...

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

skipping today

Long ago and oh so far away
I fell in love with you...


It's the middle of the week, but I feel so tired I swear it could have been Friday. Oh I wish it's Friday already. It's payday tomorrow and it's my sister's birthday on Saturday. Looking forward to it! Due to my attachment with the internet, I sacrifice my sleeping time for internet hours. I even read a couple of chapters from this current book I'm rereading befoe I go to bed. All that, after 9 hours in front of the monitor at work. Oh my poor eyes! If I can only fast forward the weekdays and make the weekends pass in slow motion, I would! I am soo tired... I can rant all I want but I know that it is my fault. I bestow this upon myself. Haha!


Loneliness is such a sad affair
And I cant hardly wait...


Been missing him. That's probably one of the reasons why I would prefer to keep myself busy. Since my eyes have been probably one of the overused and abused part of my body, they are also busy sneaking glances at other somehow attractive members of the opposite sex in my surroundings. Too bad there aren't many (any?) to choose from. Oh yeah, I got a crush on somebody right now (heehee!), but it will remain at that. My heart is still quite occupied, thank you.


Don't you remember you told me you loved me baby?
You said you'd be coming back this way again...


So, what's with these italicized lines in between my entry? Is it related to this post? Nothing really. It's just this song "Superstar" (by Ruben Studdard and revived by Usher) that is stuck in my head for hours now. :)


Baby baby baby baby oh baby I love you I really do...


I wish I could just skip today and go to tomorrow. They say it's the journey that counts, not the destination. It's the longing that makes the goal or dream worthwhile. Probably, but I have to say, this anticipation for the future isn't all that jazz.

Dean Thomas?

Ex ni Ginny... Hehehe!

...and which lesser Harry Potter character are you?

untouchable

Para maiba naman, magta-Tagalog muna ako. Wala lang, gusto ko eh. Kahit na English ang entry title at ang kanta. Wala kasi akong magawa. Alam kong kulang ako sa tulog pero gusto ko lang magsulat. Para pala 'to sa mga taong heartbroken. Yung may mga "untouchables" sa kanilang buhay-- yung di mo man lang mahawakan at hanggang tingin na lang yung paghanga mo. Yung iniisip mo kung malalaman pa ba nya yung nararamdaman mo. Parang high school 'no? Kahit pala sa mga ka-edad ko nangyayari pa rin 'to. Sige, kumanta na lang tayo. ('Di ba Ronan?) :)


You're Beautiful
~*James Blunt*~


My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.


You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.


Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
F*cking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.


You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.


P.S.
Now I know one of the reasons why I prefer to blog in English. It's so cheesy if I write in Tagalog. Hahaha!

in robes!

This is what I didn't have. A pic of us in robes! Here we are in front of the "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" stand by the Cinemas in Shangri-La EDSA Mall. Yes, we were all dressed up for the occasion! :)



PHP peeps from Left to Right:
Ravenclaw student Lady FinduilasGryffindor student PadawanHobbitWitchGryffindor head-of-house Prof. SkywalkerRavenclaw student Galenlondeien


*Photo courtesy of Gryffindor student VJBeejay.

meeting other Potter-holics

Christmas is in the air!
Shangri-La Mall EDSA view from 5th floor


We went to our second official PHP EB yesterday in Shangri-La Mall EDSA. We finally got our Hogwarts robes (mine's Ravenclaw and my sister's Gryffindor) and spent a few hours with other Hogwarts Philippines students roaming around the mall with costumes on. It was funny coz after being an inactive member for years now, yes I was a lurker, I never thought I'd be an active member of the organization. It was nice seeing faces behind forum usernames. I guess since Lord of the Rings won't have any movies anymore, unless Peter Jackson decides to make "The Hobbit", there aren't a lot of things to look forward to, except maybe the annual New Worlds Sci-Fi and Fantasy Convention that may take place early next year in time for the Narnia movie. Speaking of Narnia, I was tempted to buy the boxed set worth P1,700+ since it was on sale at 20% off last Saturday. Since it's not yet payday, I didn't want to take money from my savings account (again). Now, I'm just crossing my fingers and hope they go on sale again before the movie comes out. *sigh*



Ravenclaw and Gryffindor robes

reflection

Thought for the day:


Never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of what you are. Do your best especially when people expect the least from you. It's because the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can't.

after take two

*May contain some SPOILERS*


I watched "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" for the second time last night with my sister and Ma. Good thing my Ma and I are now in good terms. Yes, I tried my best not to cry in the graveyard scene again and a couple of tears still slid down my right eye. Sheesh. Call me weepy but yes, indeed I am. I can't make a decent movie review coz I know I'll just be a biased fan writing ramblings about how I like the fact that Mike Newell decided to keep Cuaron's Hogwarts, but added his own touches and made it all-in-all a fast-paced flick that even non-HP book readers will be kept on the edge of their seats.


I know a couple of people, my mother included, who did not appreciate the too many deviations in this movie. I have to admit, after rereading the book, there are indeed a lot of changes. Well, you have to think they had to cram hundreds of pages in a 2 hour and 20 minute movie. I believe they did a pretty good job with that.


One more reason why I can't make a decent review about it is because I have become a Viktor Krum fangirl and I never expected to be one when I first read the book. I guess Stanislav Ianevski's charms worked on me and like one avatar said...



KRUMgasm



Stanislav Ianevski



Oh yes, I was even dreaming about Stan last night, it was sweet when I was asleep and scary when I woke up. I thought I was delusional. I guess I just needed the sleep after being awake for 25 straight hours yesterday. Pathetic. I think the couple of days vacation leaves are taking their toll on me now. I feel lazy to go to work. But then I just have to think that Christmas is just lurking around the corner waiting to pounce on any unsuspecting penniless victim. I gotta earn.


Back to the topic, the second viewing made me realize there are indeed a lot of funny quips distributed within the film. Even Mad-Eye Moody contributed to the humor that usually Hagrid, Neville and Ron would provide. It's general dark background made me ignore that during the first viewing. I found myself laughing most of the time and I like it. There was also one scene when I finally understood the unexpectedly early death of Bartemius Crouch. Remember "the tongue" Moody showed him? That's one of the reasons why I like to watch it again. Who knows what other "clues" I may notice?


The challege for the next HP movie directors now would be how to continue with the story the past 4 movies have provided, without ruining the original story JK Rowling has told us in her books. I can't wait! :)

long distance 2

November 14 has come and gone. I think this post ought to have a continuation.


What happened?


He did not pass the final interview. I know he tried his best but I guess it was not meant to be. He was depressed and I tried to make him realize that it's over and that he has to move on. There are more things, and probably greater things, in store for him. Things happen for a reason, right? Easy for me to say but I know he must feel terrible right now. I know how he had pressured himself to pass that interview. I'm just by his side. Last night when he told me that I inspire him and that he is grateful I believe in him, I can't help but shed some tears of my own.


What will happen now?


I just learned earlier today that he is going to Tarlac tomorrow. I asked him if we could at least see each other tomorrow before he leaves. He agreed. Somehow, a part in me has accepted this situation. Worst-case scenario for me would be if (or when?) he leaves directly for Dapitan from Tarlac and we'll never get to see each other for a long time (or ever again?). He doesn't know how long he will stay there because he needs to ask his sister in Dapitan first if he surely can get a job there. I don't even know what wil happen to us. Can we just leave it all to fate?

take two

I'm gonna watch this movie again tomorrow, November 16. It's one of those things that makes life more bearable. I'm glad I am on leave (again). :)

post-GoF

11 November 2006 8PM SM Megamall Cinema 2


Ok, I promised myself I won't post any spoilers after my first viewing. I am nearly finished with the book and I'm enjoying every page, especially after watching the movie and seeing the actors behind the characters. I want to finish reading before my second viewing on the 16th.



proud Potter fans!!!


All I can say (as of now):

• quoting Miao (translated from Tagalog to English), "Harry Potter fans shed tears starting from this movie and the next and the next... come movie 7, we won't have any tears to shed." Bring some tissues when you watch this film.




• more and better magic on screen means more and better special effects! When I say "better", I really mean better!




• two-thumbs up to Ralph Feinnes!!! He is the perfect Voldemort!




• I wish there could have been more time for each scene, but I guess they couldn't cram everything in just one movie.




• see a better-acting Daniel Radcliffe compared to the previous movies... Rupert and Emma are still perfect for Ron and Hermione




• they're all grown up!!! :)




• it is the darkest of all four movies




• more goodlooking actors to drool on (Robert and Stan for the fangirls and Clemence and the actresses who played the Patil sisters for the fanboys!)




• I have accepted Katie Leung as Cho Chang (I'm not sure with my my sis though...)




• hope the other champions and Ginny had more lines to say




• it's worth watching over and over again

That's all I can think of as of the moment. Aside from Miao, also met Beejay and some new faces from Pinoy Harry Potter in their cool costumes!!! I can't wait for the 16th to watch it again. I also can't wait for the 20th so we can finally get our Hogwarts robes! By the way, there is a Harry Potter event at Shangri-La EDSA on November 19 and 20 and I might see you there! :)



advance screening tickets and sureseats tickets


Sorry pics only taken by my poor Nokia 6610i camphone (mostly in the night mode) so they're are not pretty shots. More pics in this Multiply album.

ahem...

I can't stay online for long coz I'm off to watch "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" today!!! Wahoo!!! No sleep for more than 24 hours again but I don't care! Bye! :)

canine friend

I miss having a pet dog who would always be there for me, who would be my friend without any reservations and no hidden agenda and who would constantly ask for my attention. Since my brother was bitten by a dog several times before, he has developed a phobia. I think having a pet puppy will help him overcome that fear. I am more of a dog person than a cat lover. Yes, we had pet dogs before but now, my parents don't want to have another pet (we currently have a red-eared turtle) coz it is an added expense. I understand, that's why I have declined opportunities of adopting a puppy.





Last night, I was walking a few blocks from the house towards the main road where I can hail a cab for work. That was about 10:30PM. I have been in the graveyard shift for almost 3 years now and I'm used to commuting alone. I've had my own scary moments and last night was an addition. I was about 2 blocks away from the house when this drunkard was walking opposite my direction. He tried to catch my attention by making psst! sounds and mumbling words at me. I walked faster and didn't show him that I heard. Suddenly, this dog was barking at him. There are lots of dogs on our street (also the reason why my brother is not accompanying me on my way to work), but they always ignore me. I was surpised when this dog was barking madly and I was relieved when I saw that the bark was for the drunk person who was, at that time, made a u-turn and tried to follow me. Good thing the huge dog was barking and it was on his path, so I was able to "get away". It was really scary.


I miss having a canine friend.


P.S.
Finally, we had this civil exchange of words and now, my Ma and I are in speaking terms. Thank God it happened before the 16th. I don't like to watch a movie with her and sulk the whole time. Something (someone?) pissed me off at work last night, but I am not in the mood to expound on it. Then there's this girl who is in my Friendster account who likes to plagiarize me when I post answers to surveys. I know some of us like to answer surveys to show our friends who we really are and to share our experiences, but then we are two different people and puhleez... if you can't help but copy me, don't just copy and paste my words. Learn how to rephrase for pity's sake!


I hope this feeling just disappears. Don't want to ruin my "vacation leave" tomorrow. Looking forward to it! :)

greetings Mr. Gaiman!

Happy Birthday Mr. Neil Gaiman!

well?

Have you read my post yesterday?


Well... well... well... after all is said and done, I just want to take this opportunity to thank my graveyard shift supervisors and our operations OIC for giving me this opportunity... TO WATCH THE PREMIERE OF HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE! Woohoo!!! :D


Yes, you guessed it. It was approved. So, I'll get to watch on Friday and my second viewing will be on the 16th, next Wednesday. Let's all raise our hands and sing...


There's a blue sky waiting tomorrow... waiting tomorrow... shining and shimmering... A blue sky waiting tomorrow... waiting tomorrow... maybe it's all we need!*


I am crazy. I know. ;p


*"Blue Sky" by Hale.

short notice?

Remember this post when my sister won premiere tickets for "Kingdom of Heaven" by joining a radio station contest? I had work then so she watched with Mama instead. Now, she did it again!


I was at work and I got a message from her last night that she got two premiere tickets for "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" this coming Friday (November 11)!!! My sister couldn't sleep after knowing that she won. My head was spinning and I immediately crossed my fingers. You see, I already filed for a vacation leave on the 16th when we (my sis, Ma and I) planned to watch the first day of regular screening and we already have tickets reserved in Sureseats. I actually filed it last month since we have this policy of filing for leave at least 2 weeks before the leave date. So, you can see my dilemma. Sometimes, supervisors allow leaves even short-noticed ones if and only if there is still a VL slot available for that day. I learned last night that there is still one slot available for Friday. Ohmygodohmygodohmygod!


I will know tonight if it is approved or not. If not, then I guess I'll have to stick to the original plan and wait for the 16th... but then I'll be very, very, very disappointed.


P.S.
Mother hen is still cold towards me. Will the Harry Potter movie bring us closer or tear us apart?


Edited today 10 November 2006 | 11:06 AM:
Check out my sister's blog entry to read the full story. :)

Goblet of Fire World Premiere in London

See your favorite Harry Potter stars (some of them in VELVET)!







trio: Rupert, Emma and Daniel



my favorite Weasley twins



my eyecandy: Stanislav Ianevski (as Viktor Krum)


More pics here, here, here and here. Then there's a long video here.


Enjoy! :)

laugh it off!

Got to visit Liza's blog and she posted something that made me really laugh out loud in public ('coz I'm surfing the net in a rental place now). That's something I haven't done in a while. Now, open your speakers and prepare to exercise those facial muscles!


Chinese version of the Backstreet Boys' "I Want It That Way":





Mime interpretation of Natalie Imbruglia's "Torn":

ah... weekend!

I promise myself to lessen my stresses by staying at home for the remaining hours of my weekend. Watched a movie and got to talk to him yesterday. He said he will pass the interview and on my end, I think I've made up my mind if the worst case scenario occurs. I don't want to blog it yet coz I told myself I'll cross the bridge when I get there. Then again, we have to wait what happens.


Oh and I have to get this off my chest...


Surfing online is a great past time for me. But once I become a bug in the world wide web, a spider couldn't wait to pounce on me. I don't want to take away your throne as the queen of know-it-all's. I still have a good grip on my reality. If you find me irritating and stupid, then that's your problem, not mine.


There. That will make me a little bit more relaxed...

long distance

Here's the first possible situation:


If he passes the job interview on November 14, he will live in Tarlac until February 2006 until his work starts. So, that means 2 to 3 months without him-- no Christmas, New Year or maybe even Valentine's Day. It's fine as long as he has a job to come back to and as long as he comes back.


The second possible situation:


He doesn't pass his job interview on November 14. He goes back to his home province in Dapitan where his sister can give him a job position for a government agency. Then he stays there for good. God knows when or if he comes back here.


So, what's the deal?


I am not a firm believer of long distance relationships.


So, what do I do?


I don't want to pressure him anymore 'coz God knows how much he is already pressuring himself. Maybe I should wait and hope for the best on November 14 before contemplating about this. Everything happens for a reason, right?


Togetherness for 2 years and 8 months, and friendship for almost 4 years is not that easy to dispose of. Damn...

Really. Damn it.





Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine


And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be


Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here


Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong


And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe


Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart


When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here


In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here
~*"You'll Be Safe Here" by Rivermaya*~