Have you ever felt like the universe is conspiring against your hopes and wishes?
Has it ever happened to you when everything seems to lead you to a direction you didn't want to take before?
Has it ever seemed like fate is acting against what your mind has set or willed on doing?
A co-worker of mine reminded me of this famous "Spiderman" quote two days ago: "With great power comes great responsibility." Cliche, but then again, it is so true, especially with where I am in my so-called career right now. I have never felt this "heaviness" on my shoulders before (except maybe when I was back in college and I desperately wanted to graduate on time). This feeling is different though. I am trying my best to cope and to take this a day at a time. I am glad I haven't even reached my limit yet. I am surprising myself with this show of motivation on my end when others seem to be giving up. Maybe this is due to a lack of option or maybe this is due to seeing others grab the chance and make a change.
I just wish that I can see the end of the rainbow. I know I will not regret this. I just want to know that I have been sacrificing a lot for something that is worth it.