Wednesday, September 26, 2007


I'm not ready

You're not even a maybe

Pieces broken

But my heart you have stolen

I want it back!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

New Worlds 5

New Worlds Alliance

New Worlds 5: The Fifth Philippine Science Fiction and Fantasy Convention is happening on October 27, 2007, at the Glorietta Activity Center!

Step through the stargate or through the wardrobe in costume or in Muggle clothing! Bring your lightsabers and phasers, your amulets and cutlasses and wooden stakes, or even the One Ring and your chakram! Scoot over in a 1976 Chevy Impala or park your Viper nearby! Watch the Activity Center transform into a hub of science fiction and fantasy for Daleks and the Losties and heroes, where vampires and mecha converge over dice and boardgames!

New Worlds 5 is presented to you by the New Worlds Alliance. Spread the word of sci-fi and fantasy! Be a geek and be proud!

Visit for updates. :)

Monday, September 24, 2007

Music and Men

I need some distraction... oh a beautiful release...

Fireworks at SM Mall of Asia

Fall Out Boy autograph signing
21 September 2007, SM Mall of Asia

view of the stage

view from the 2nd floor

autographed CD inlay

falling for the boys

Sponge Cola at the Candy Fair
22 September 2007, NBC Tent, The Fort


Armo (and Chris)

Chris and Jillian

Chris's stormtrooper tattoo

soundtripping with my sis

Monday, September 17, 2007

The Secret

Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming.

We are all great people. Let's go out there and live the life that we really, truly want. Have a great week ahead everyone! :)

What Is The Secret

Friday, September 14, 2007


With everything that's been happening, what I need is something else to focus on. I need a distraction. If I have the means, I would prefer to be in a place I have never been before, or maybe go some place cold like Baguio City, or go to a beach somewhere in the north.

Someone asked me why I seem to be ok despite the stress at home. Yes, there are times when I'm not ok. I cry. I pray. Sometimes I do both at the same time, but life goes on. Besides, I still need to earn a living. I don't want to dwell in the sadness because I don't want to spend my time just crying, moping and wallowing in self-pity.


Next week, my sis and I are looking forward to the Candy Fair (the magazine, not the food. Haha!) We went to the fair last year and really enjoyed it. This year, Sponge Cola will still be performing so if anyone I know will be there, let's meet up! :)

Hopefully, Papa will be ok. The swelling (edema) is still there though it is getting smaller. As I write this, he, my mother and my sister are in the hospital for a check-up and we are always anxious of what the doctor would say. I hope the edema disappears so that he won't undergo expensive dialysis sessions. I'd rather spend my October preparing and attending the New Worlds Alliance 5th Sci-Fi and Fantasy convention. I don't want to see myself frequenting the hospital again.

Anyway, on November there is "Unreality Bites: The Philippine Graphic/Fiction Awards 2". We also attended the first one, Unmasked, last year. Neil Gaiman will be stepping on Philippine soil again for the awards night and the launch of "Expeditions: The 1st Philippine Graphic/Fiction Awards Compilation". I believe, he will also give a talk about “Imagination and Creativity in the Contemporary World” at the 20th Philippine Advertising Congress to be held on November 21-24 at the Subic Bay Convention Center.


There is also a sort-of unwelcome distraction. I liked this guy... I'm trying to deny it. Ok, I still like this guy but let's just say the circumstances don't allow us to be more than just friends. I'm not complaining. I know I am not ready to be in another serious romantic relationship. The last thing I need is another bout of "unrequited love". Feels like high school all over again. Geez...

Oh well, I'm taking this a day at a time. There are still A LOT of things in this life I am looking forward to and I am very grateful of. :)

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

More Prayers Needed

I thought that the worst is over. I really hope it is.

Papa has edema of both feet-- one of the signs of kidney failure. That is also one of the effects of his diabetes. He will maintain his meds but his weekly injection would increase to twice a week. More holes in our pockets. Without any changes, he will undergo dialysis, I just hope and pray it won't lead to that. I feel so helpless.

Again, your prayers are more than welcome. My family truly appreciates them.

The heart remembers all special moments when kindness made the difference. May the kindness you often give return to you in countless special ways.

Monday, September 10, 2007


The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right

~* "Won't Go Home Without You" by Maroon 5 *~

I am back to work and back to the usual routine. I'm just glad I have weekends off. I wish I have more rest days so I can sleep longer. Wishiful thinking, I know.

I went to TriNoma last Saturday to meet a friend who gave me some meds and fruits for my father. It was my first time there because it's far from my home and office. The place is huge! It's nice too. It's not yet complete but I'm sure it's gonna be more beautiful when it's finished. Going there and spending time with my friend gave me a much-needed distraction.

I also want to go to the beach or to some place cold because it's too hot to be September here. I want to watch some gigs coz I miss listening to live music. I want to travel. I want to love and be all romantic again. I want someone to hug me. Maybe that's the reason why I want to have a dog but I know my parents won't want to have a pet dog. I want to be free-- free of responsibilities, free of burdens, free of worries, free of debts, free of nagging thoughts and restess sleep. I'm just tired. I want to fly.

Some of my snapshots of the week:

Makati Ave. corner Gil Puyat Ave.
view from the 17th floor

Makati City (city hall jutting on the left side)
view from the 17th floor

Found this cutie in Bioresearch Glorietta and I can't help but take some pics:

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Thought for the Day

Got this from a friend's text message:

A turtle once taught me that no matter how heavy his bearings are, it's his choice to carry the luggage for it is the only way he feels protected.

Have a nice day everyone! :)

Monday, September 03, 2007

The 2nd Philippine Graphic/Fiction Awards

(Reposting Prof. Meann's announcement)

Award-winning author Neil Gaiman and Fully Booked present:

The 2nd Philippine Graphic/Fiction Awards!

Calling all Filipino writers, artists, and just about anyone with a wild imagination! Neil Gaiman wants YOU to join this nationwide writing competition to seek out excellent work in two categories: comics and prose fiction.

The contest starts on September 1 and deadline of submission of entries is on October 31, 2007.

Over P300,000 in prizes, including P100,000 grand prize for the first place winners!

1st Prize - P100,000
2nd Prize - P30,000
3rd Prize - P15,000

1st Prize - P100,000
2nd Prize - P30,000
3rd Prize - P15,000

Download the Contest Guidelines here.
Download the Official Application Form here.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Practicing PT

My PRC license expired on my birthday. Since I don't work as a physical therapist, I didn't bother renewing it yet. That might change.

My Papa was discharged from the hospital yesterday after a week of confinement. There really are angels out there who were kind enough to open their hearts to my family. He was in the ER and OR on his first day and spent 2 days in the ICU. He has diabetes, a disease also threatening me and my siblings. Three of his major body parts were affected when he nearly died-- heart, kidneys and prostate. That required the services of several specialists as well.

Today, his legs are weak and he is unable to stand. He still has a catheter and will keep it for the next month. He will continue his medications for maintenance and will have several follow-up check ups with his doctors in the next few weeks as an out-patient. Now, we have a patient at home and I found myself planning on therapeutic goals for my father. It's time for me to make use of my rusty PT skills once more.

In other news, I can't believe it's September already. I'm seeing this as a new beginning for all of us. I'm also glad it's the weekend because I promised myself I'll be catching some sleep. I miss sleeping! Have a great weekend everyone!