Monday, December 29, 2008

Happy Ending

I wish you a story with a happy ending and the wisdom to look for it.
~ "My Sassy Girl"

This is what I get for watching mushy love stories when I'm bored, but this makes sense. A happy ending doesn't just come and happen. I have to do something in order to get what I want. That's why I believe in both destiny and free-will.

This year is about to end like all chapters in the book and I have to start a new one. My story, so far, is not as exciting or interesting as I would want it to be. Nevertheless, it is full of significant events and roller-coaster emotions. I am grateful for this year. I have learned a lot from my mistakes and experiences. I have also learned to treasure the people who love and care for me. This year also introduced me to new-found friends whom I know I will always remember.

I am looking forward to next year. I just have the feeling that I can finally start on working to get the happy ending that I wanted.

Happy New Year, everyone! =)

Friday, December 19, 2008

Falling Into Place

I am feeling optimistic today and this rarely happens, so here goes...

There will come a time in one's life when everything seems to fall into place. I have always believed that things happen for a reason. Sometimes, the reasons aren't clear enough. Sometimes, the reasons just make life more confusing and heartbreaking. Time can be a friend, if you want it to be.

Yesterday, I accompanied my parents to the hospital. It was my mother's birthday and I didn't want her to spend her special day alone while waiting for my father's operation to finish. My diabetic father had his cataracts removed from his right eye. The operation was successful and we will be facing a few weeks of adjustment at home. My mother and I never really bonded that way I bond with my girl friends or sister. Sometimes, I prefer to be quiet when I'm with her because I can't seem to gauge her moods and/or perceptions in some instances. But sometimes, quiet time is enough. Lately, I haven't been a really good daughter and spent time with them because work always takes my time away. I know that'll change soon.

I had a chat with my best bud today, after a long time of not talking since she's halfway around the world. I was glad we talked. I was surprised about the main topic of our conversation but I was so happy to listen to her. I miss her a lot.

I had a feeling that I may be lost now but eventually, everything will fall into place. I may not be able to find a purpose right now but I am ok. I am happy, most of the time. I have people who love me, care for me and trust me. I may not have a "love life" (haha!), but I am good. Everything will be ok. I just know it. =)

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Bite Me!

Carlisle bit me.

I wish!

Oh well, "Twilight" the movie is so-so. I didn't really except much. There were a lot of mushy moments and I don't think the cheesy cinematography and directing really helped at all. They could have cut down on the spinning, super close-up and supposedly romantic scenes, and added more action/adventure ones.

Surprisingly, I appreciated Kristen Stewart's acting as Bella. She was klutzy enough. Charlie was not really what I physically imagined but Billy Burke's acting gave justification to the character. I realized Robert Pattinson actually looked more yummy when the scene is a bit dark (during the dinner date and during prom night) and looked yucky with glaring lights on (cafeteria scenes). The smirks are nice. The makeup should have been applied evenly. Yes, that includes the neck and nape. The dazzling was ok, but I didn't like the background sound effects when he was dazzling. It made me think of fairy tales and Tinkerbell. In all fairness, he has a better bod compared to his Cedric Diggory days but he didn't actually made me fall in love with Edward all over again. No offense, R Pat fans! Cam Gigandet as James, on the other hand, made me love to hate him. I think he was the best actor to fit the character. I am saving the best for last. I have loved Dr. Carlisle Cullen in the book. Watching Peter Facinelli on screen made me love him more! I think I wanna watch the movie again because of him. *love*love*

I am counting the days. After more than 4 years, I am finally going to move on to (hopefully) somewhere better. I am crossing my fingers that everything will work out for me. I am going to miss a lot of moments and a lot of people. I am just doing this for myself this time. I guess there are going to be lessons learned, such as never taking someone important for granted. *sigh*

Here's to getting bitten... and moving on! =)

Monday, November 24, 2008


The fork lead me to a dead end. Now, I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am going that way. Wish me luck! =)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Sweet Sunday

I slept the whole day last Saturday. I needed that.

Sunday was a blast! I got to meet Michael Johns and watch Chris Brown and Rihanna in concert. I couldn't think of a better way to spend Sunday.

I went to a nearby mall. I know I couldn't watch Michael Johns perform on a weekday, so I took advantage of the meet and greet set up by one of the sponsors of his visit here in the Philippines. Michael Johns was my first bet in American Idol season 7. I wanted him to win prior to David Cook bug bite. =)

"Dear Karen" autograph

photo op

signing away

I needed the fan because it was getting hot

During the short encounter, I was shaking but I wanted to tell him something so I was able to say a few words:

Me; Hello Michael. I'm Karen. It's nice meeting you.

MJ: Yeah, me too!

Me: You know what, I wanted you to win. I was rooting for you in American Idol.

MJ: Really?! That's great!

Me: I hope you can come back here for a concert.

MJ: I will. I will.

I was one of the lucky 50 who got an autographed flyer and a photo op. He also told us his Christmas single will be released soon and since he's pretty close to David Cook, David will be here January or February of next year. That is also the same time MJ will be releasing his album. Ain't that sweet? =)

After meeting, MJ, I met up with my sis. We went to Boni High Street for early dinner and we were in the Open Field at 7PM. The Rihanna and Chris Brown concert started a little after 8PM. We were really far from the stage, so we didn't have any decent pictures to share. It was a fun experience. Chris can really shake his booty and I loved it! Rihanna's "Unfaithful" gave me goosebumps too. I have a few complaints but the experience was worth it. They are both great performers!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Have you ever felt like the universe is conspiring against your hopes and wishes?

Has it ever happened to you when everything seems to lead you to a direction you didn't want to take before?

Has it ever seemed like fate is acting against what your mind has set or willed on doing?

A co-worker of mine reminded me of this famous "Spiderman" quote two days ago: "With great power comes great responsibility." Cliche, but then again, it is so true, especially with where I am in my so-called career right now. I have never felt this "heaviness" on my shoulders before (except maybe when I was back in college and I desperately wanted to graduate on time). This feeling is different though. I am trying my best to cope and to take this a day at a time. I am glad I haven't even reached my limit yet. I am surprising myself with this show of motivation on my end when others seem to be giving up. Maybe this is due to a lack of option or maybe this is due to seeing others grab the chance and make a change.

I just wish that I can see the end of the rainbow. I know I will not regret this. I just want to know that I have been sacrificing a lot for something that is worth it.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008


I am seeing a fork in the road ahead. I have made up my mind to take one path. I don't think there's anything anyone can do about it. I have sacrificed a lot of time and effort in this. My life has been circling on nothing but work these past few weeks. I think it is about time I choose one way and move on.

I need my life back.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Give Me Something

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try

~* "You Give Me Something", James Morrison *~

I've been sick since I got back from Bacolod-- cough, sniffles, sore throat, you name it. I blame it on overfatigue and lack of sleep. Work's not helping either. I wonder if this is gonna improve. I would like to stay positive and think that it will, career-wise. I am still as lost, if not even more lost, than before. But after going through the real-life drama of losing a loved-one, the roller coaster ride of family issues and problems, I am still glad to be here. I just wish that my existence will really make an impact on other people, if not on myself.

Our trip to my grandmother's house the past weekend brought about a mixture of emotions. I was sad because she passed away. I was sad because I kept seeing my mother cry. I was sad because I kept seeing my aunts and uncles cry. I cried myself. But I was also happy because it was like a mini-reunion of my relatives from my mother's side of the family. They were all complete including my nephews and nieces, cousins, second-cousins, long lost relatives, long-lost friends, long-lost neighbors and even relatives I didn't even know existed! Seeing everyone there, making up for lost time, sharing stories and even forgiving and forgetting that they even have existing arguments made the stay there more bearable.

It also happened to be the final weekend of the Bacolod MassKara Festival. My siblings and I went to the city proper to catch a glimpse of it. It was the first time for my sister. We didn't stay long because we lacked the time and the crowd was too much to handle when we got there. If it were another time and circumstance, I would have enjoyed and every minute of it! I wish I could go back there for a real and a long vacation, hopefully someday.

I just wish the world could stop turning just for an hour or so and I'll just stay still and ponder on what I am doing and where I am now. Having gone through a whirlwind of experiences these past few days made me reflect on life more and appreciate what I have more. Yes, even if I do complain most of the time. =)

I am grateful to all my friends, relatives, co-workers, everyone who gave their condolences, shared their sympathy and tried to comfort my family in any way. Thank you all!

Friday, October 17, 2008

Back to the City of Smiles

This weekend is going to be a long one for me. Our flight leaves very early tomorrow morning. I am expecting longer nights as we wait for my grandmother's burial on Sunday, October 19. I bet there is going to be a sort-of family reunion. This year is history in the making for me. We are going back to my hometown for the second time within one year after not going home in more than 12 years. If I were going there for a vacation leave instead of a bereavement leave, I wouldn't mind the sleepless nights. This Sunday also happens to be the culminating day of the MassKara Fetival. I haven't witnessed that live since I was in elementary school. I am expecting to see a very busy and crowded city tomorrow. That also explains the sky-rocketing prices of airplane tickets. Oh well, I don't know if we can attend that. Maybe my grandmother wouldn't mind. Hehe! =)

Saturday, October 11, 2008


My grandmother passed away early this morning. She was 86. I know she is in a better place now. We are all going to miss her. =(

Friday, October 10, 2008

What's Killing Me Now...

* WORK: It's stressful. I'm in a "damned if you do, damned if you don't" situation. I'm missing my supposed break schedules. I'm skipping meals. I'm always, always physically and mentally exhausted. I'm not sleeping well.

* FAMILIAL THOUGHTS: My grandmother is very weak now. I hate to admit it but she may pass away any time. My mother is stressed out about my grandmother's situation. She is having health problems and all that thinking is also aggravating her heart condition. I don't talk or spend as much time as I want to with my siblings or father. Blame it on my hectic and draining work schedule.

* LIFE: No fun at all at this point in time.

* MY FEET: I've been wearing 2-and-a-half-inch pumps for the past 4 days and 80% of my time at work is spent standing and walking. They're throbbing like hell now.

* REALLY NICE LOVE SONGS: I have been officially single for more than a year now and there are some songs in my current playlist with lyrics that can just drive me crazy IF I were in love. Hehehe!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Brown Flirt

Enough of the serious blogging. It's Saturday and I am going to be silly and I am going to have fun. I deserve it! =)

So, here are two not-so-important information about me that I got from Blogthings. Since I don't wanna continue being "negative" in the blogosphere as of now, here goes...

Your Hair Should Be Brown

You are an intelligent, well respected person.

You are very confident. You take yourself seriously, and other people take you seriously too.

You are a good leader, and you can be trusted with someone's life.

You motivate people well, and you command respect easily.

You are competent, successful, and organized. You can't stand chaos.

Some people mistake you for being cold, calculating, or elitist.

Good thing my hair color is dark brown. =)

Your Physical Flirt Level: 90%

You are a major physical flirt. You definitely can't keep your hands to yourself!

Whether you're playing footsie or giving a lingering hug, you're known for touching.

And while some people may welcome this flirting style, not everyone likes it.

Don't stop touching people, but make sure your advances are appropriate and welcomed.

I don't blame myself for being naturally "touchy". That's innate. You gotta feel it to believe it! Hah! =)

Tuesday, September 30, 2008


I had nightmares last week. Well, they actually happened when I was asleep during the day so I don't think that is an apt name. One in particular scared me. This was when I thought someone or something was taking over me.

Reality is even scarier. That's the feeling when I wake up. Sometimes, I don't know what I really want anymore. I'm having a hard time sorting out my priorities. I'm confused with what I feel. I don't know who my real friends are. I don't know why I'm avoiding something I used to enjoy doing or someone I used to have fun being with.

Did they change? Or did I?

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Stuck in a Rut

I really wanted to blog yesterday. I have lots of questions bugging me right now. A day out of town with friends should have been a week out of town. I didn't get to blog yesterday. Partly because I was afraid I might post things I will regret in the future. Partly because I was so mad I might break something. Don't get me wrong, I am not violent. Then again, I don't think I should apologize for what I feel. This is my outlet. It has been for many years now. I have always taken it a day at a time. I have always gotten up after every fall. I am emotional. I know it. I actually wanted to write a book that starts with "I used to have a dream...", but I don't want to finalize my life by putting "used-to" before "dream".

It's just that there are some people who rely on others to fill their shortcomings. Other people may have a savior-complex wherein they need to always be there for others and suffer because others don't complete their end of the bargain. I am not one of those. I have put my family on top of my priority list, but I have a life I have to live too. Being the eldest and shouldering most of the family's finances have really impacted me in such a way that I am not really giddy and excited on meeting a man, getting married and starting a family. I am exhausted at this point in my life and hopefully, when I get the chance to live for myself, I would want to enjoy the world and what it can give. I want to work for myself for a change. I want to imagine I have the world to myself for a change. Maybe if (or when?) I become very, very rich, then I could shoulder all the financial burden of all my extended family. Now, I don't think so. Other people should be responsible enough to know that they have a role to play. I did not sign up for this. If someone did, that someone should not pass it on to me.

I am taking this a day at a time. It seems like that's what I have been doing for most part of my adult life. It's not fun. I hope something will find me and take me away from all of these. I would then be glad.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Null and Void

I think I am at that time in my life when the positive and negative things happening to me just even out. There are some aspects in life that became clearer. I have learned a lot the past few weeks and I appreciate that. I actually like that feeling when I find answers to my questions and know how I got there. It makes me feel like I'm doing something worthwhile.

On the other hand, there are also other aspects that became more foggy. My mother went back to the province to visit my really weak (and probably dying but I really hope not) grandmother. I had a spat with my father because I felt the responsibilities again at home since my mother is gone. I rarely see my sister because of her hectic sched. She has her own life's sh*t to attend to. So, that my life right now could be summarized in this equation: (stress with work) + (stress at home) = (double the f*cking stress)!

*breathes deeply*

Ok, enough of those de-motivative issues. I will be looking forward to this weekend with hopefully a more positive and non-pissed outlook in life. So help me God.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Catching A Dream

But who could love me?
I am out of my mind
Throwing a line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream

~* "She Had The World", Panic at the Disco *~

At this point, I am mentally and physically exhausted. The ramp-up at work is coinciding with the adjustments and information overload in training. Being a sponge isn't enough. Being a bamboo isn't enough. I think I need superpowers.

I need lots of things. Sleep, for one, is much needed after staying in the office for about 12 hours almost everyday. The worries of training and passing the certification is not just for the specific product, but also for the all those extra management/quality/bonus/performance trainings and they are all happening AT THE SAME TIME!!!

I miss quality and quantity time with my family. It seems that the weekend is not enough to recover from the stresses of the work week.

Lately, I have been listening to my sister's "Pretty Odd" PATD album. I think I need my sanity too.

You Are the Daughter

You very keyed in to emotions. You care deeply and are quick to forgive others.

You often get lost in your own thoughts and daydreams. You find it difficult to stay focused.

At your best, you are sweet, sensitive, and innocent. You bring joy to people's lives.

You are open and expressive. You love sharing your optimistic, dreamy vision of the world.

At your worst, you feel powerless and like a victim. Your fear can paralyze you.

You tend to complain and whine. Whether your complaints are legitimate or not, you're not one to solve your own problems.

Friday, August 22, 2008


I haven't blogged lately so here goes... I will be starting my 3rd week of training for eBay today. I have to admit aside from seeing my drop dead gorgeous ex-pat trainer crush (woohoo!), I am really looking forward to my classes. I am finally going to get my revenge on fraudsters since our batch will be battling against fraudsters on eBay. Haha! I know training is the best part of being employed. It's like being a student again but being paid for learning new things. Who wouldn't want that, right?

We are planning to do some fun (and adventurous) weekend "getaways" without our ex-pat trainers, Adam and Kearsten, and I hope they will push through before we end our training period. I guess this is the moment when I'm glad I turned over a new leaf and started a new chapter in my life. Again, I am going to do this one day at a time. =)

You See the World Through Blue Colored Glasses

You live your life with tranquility. You have faith that things will work themselves out with time.

You judge all your interactions through the lens of hope. You try to get all the facts before forming your opinion.

You face challenges with wisdom. You know that all bad things pass, and you have the confidence to see problems through.

You see love as the utmost expression of trust. Your relationships tend to be peaceful and stable.

At your worst, you can be cool, melancholy, and detached. You sometimes have to step back from emotionally charged situations.

You are at your happiest when you are able to reflect and relax.

Thursday, August 07, 2008


I resigned from work last Tuesday. I am enjoying my 3-day unpaid off and reading, no, devouring all the books I can put my hands on. It's going to be some time before I can file for leave again. I am going to start my 2-month long training with the new account tomorrow. A part of me is sad for leaving the account where I worked for 3 years and 5 months. It felt like my second home. I miss the people and the environment. I know I will never become who I am today without the experiences I had with them. A part of me is also looking forward to learning new things and working for a new account. The feeling of being lost has diminished for the past few days. At least now I have a clear path to take and I'm gonna just go through it a day at a time. I just hope everything falls into place.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Breaking the Routine

Change is welcome especially if it's for the better. I was given the choice to spend my weekend a bit differently from what I am used to and I grabbed that opportunity. I'm glad I did.

Yesterday, my parents and my sister spent almost the entire day in Lubao, Pampanga (almost a 2-hour bus ride from Manila). We attended the 7th birthday of my neice (my cousin's daughter). I was hesitant to go at first because most of the people there are strangers to me and I would prefer to just stay home. Then I thought it would be better to spend even a few hours of my weekend outside the city and it was good. Everyone was busy and we even helped out during the preparations but it was nice seeing a few of my relatives there.

On the other hand, I am assigned to the morning shift at work this past week and maybe stay there in the next few weeks too. My body is stil adjusting after working for more than 3 years straight in the night shift but I have no serious complaints. I am just missing my friends. I am not looking forward to traffic and the rush hour Makati crowd. I also am missing home-cooked meals and saving money for lunch, but I know this is just temporary. I miss sleeping at night time during work days and I am liking it now. =)

I know there will still be major career-related changes in my life in the next few weeks and I think I'm ready for that. Just bring it on!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

The Push

I walked one step further down my so-called career road today. I got that push I needed and finally made a decision to steer in one direction. This is actually better than going around in circles or getting lost. I just hope I'm not going to a dead end. Good luck to me! =)

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Losing the Sun

Have you ever experienced that feeling when you think that you are a "victim" of another person's hastily-made and, sometimes, poorly-thought-of decision? Have you gone through a time when you think you are placed somewhere you don't deserve? Have you ever felt like nothing is going right when you have done your best and worked hard for almost every damn thing life hurls at you? I have.

My mother told me, when it rains, it pours. Well, the best I got the past few days is drizzle and the worst I'm having now is a hurricane.

I'll be job-hunting on my birthday. I wish I could get the job I need and want as a gift. I don't think it's too much to ask.

Sun, shine for me please.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Road Trip

The Road Trip of Your Life

You see life as a journey to be shared with others. Kinship and sharing are very important to you.

You often find yourself rushing through life. You don't take as much time as you'd like to enjoy the little things.

You are all about risk and randomness in your life. You travel off the beaten path... in fact, you're often the one carving the way!

You are able to find a fairly healthy balance between work and play. You work when you need to, but you never let yourself burn out.

In another life, you could have been a great novelist. You have a knack for describing things in an interesting way.


A lot of people at work resigned from work today. They are due to be trained to another account in a few days. I lost almost half of my team, some of my friends and a couple of really close pals. It felt different at the office last night. People were still working albeit less calls due to the U.S. holiday, but there were tears, blank stares and dream-like states. I cannot exactly pinpoint if it was due to sadness or uncertainty or shock or anger. We snapped a lot of pictures hoping that the camera will capture the memories we will forever treasure.

This is it. The end of the account is inevitable. A few days from now, I will make that decision too-- leave the account and transfer to another one. If or when I make that choice, I will leave some of my friends. Although I will still see some of them, it won't be the same anymore.

It's high time again to jump off the cliff. I read somewhere that when one makes a decision, one does not leave one foot on the cliff and one foot hanging in the air. Making a decision is taking the plunge, however risky it may be. The success there would be to conquer it all.

So, I wish each and everyone of us goodluck! It has been nice working with all of you. Some memories may not be as nice as the others, but there are lessons learned and friendships created. That's what matters. =)


Saturday, June 28, 2008


Weekend's here. Finally.

I don't know if the 2 days off from work will give me enough chance to resurface. The past week had me drowning in uncertainties. I think I've been in a career limbo before but this, by far, is the most difficult. I just hope that the coming days may somehow enlighten me with which path to take. Good luck to us all.

I just have the remaining day for myself and I am going to probably finish a book, then watch the latest season of "Lost". These are just some of the trivial things I miss when work is draining my life and getting the best out of me. Earlier today, I watched another movie alone (again). I wanted to view a lot of good movies lately and I failed to watch some but the past 2 films I caught on the big screen have been romantic comedies. Maybe, subconsciously, I wanted to experience some funny but shallow fairy tale to keep me from falling into an abyss.

Enough of the drama. Now, here's something funny I wanna share. I saw these pictures on my phone a few days ago. This is for all fangirls, especially the sci-fi/fantasy ones, out there. We took these last June 7. We were in SM Bacolod this time before we watched "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian":

me and my sis "fooling around" Prince Caspian's standee

Who could resist Ben Barnes, right? Hahaha! =)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Back at One

I had been back from the vacation last week but haven't had the time to go online until now. Work and house chores have been stealing bits and pieces of life away from me. I haven't had a decent sleep since Monday. It really is stressful. I need to make a decision regarding my so-called career because our account is closing by September and I have to choose what road to take. I wish I could afford to rest and relax for a few months before hunting for another job. I know it is going to be difficult to go back to scratch but I just have to, again, go out of my comfort zone, embrace change and be optimistic about new challenges. I know I have been through this situation before and I am here now and I can't say I had any regrets. I'm gonna miss my work in that account and of course, I'm gonna miss the people and my friends, of course, whom I may not work with again. I don't wanna be selfish and want people to stay with me 'til the end because one way or another, each of us has his/her own path to take. It is sad, but we all have to stand up and move on.

view from above


Anyway, I have a lot of stories about my vacation. I just wish my family and I had a longer time to spend away from work and everything else. It was great seeing loved-ones and relatives again after a very long time. It was the first time my siblings rode a plane so we took in the view and got as many pictures as we want. We arrived in Bacolod City on June 6 and went straight to my grandmother's house in San Miguel, Murcia, Negros Occidental. The place is about 45 minutes away from Bacolod City. The next day, we went to the city again to sightsee. The thing is, the city I once viewed as "huge" when I was a little kid seemed so small. Even my elementary school looked smaller than what I remember. The places triggered a lot of memories (mostly woes) from the past. Now, I just laugh at them. My sis saw her former teacher and it was nice seeing familiar faces. There are changes such as the malls and oh I love the cheaper movie prices! We watched "Prince Caspian" there and the price was almost have of what we pay here in Manila. Haha! Some things remained the same such as the oh-so-delicious original Bacolod chicken inasal. June 8 was my grandmother's birthday. She turned 86. She looked better than the pictures I've seen of her when she was in the hospital. It was like a family reunion. There were a lot of kids (my cousins) and all of my mother's siblings were there except for one. Even my other Lola, grandma's sister was there to visit her. It was nice.

pretty Lola

The next day we went for an hour's ship ride to Iloilo City. We arrived there really early so we had breakfast at my sister's godparents' house. They have been close friends with my parents since time immemorial. We killed time again at a nearby mall and since we were already in La Paz, Iloilo City, we ate a very original La Paz batchoy for lunch. Yummy! After lunch, we went to a couple more houses to visit some relatives and finally headed to Leon, Iloilo where my father grew up in. We have a lot of relatives there and some of them I don't even know. Haha! That night was my first time to play the Nintendo WII and my siblings and I loved it! There was this specific spot in the town plaza wherein my bro and I had our pic taken years ago. we had it taken again on that same spot. Haha! I so missed that place. When my family used to live in Bacolod, we used to spend some summers there in Leon and I have a lot of good memories from that place. I wish we could have stayed longer.

now and then

original batchoy from La Paz

We went back to Murcia the next day. On June 11, we went to Mambukal Resort. It's a mountain resort nestled on Kanlaon volcano. It's just a 15-minute drive away from my grandmother's place. There are swimming pools, a butterfly garden, bat-watching, a river, waterfalls and hot springs. I have been there when I was a kid but wow, the resort is really beautiful now! It is such a tourist attraction. The afternoons were rainy that time, but we still went there for an overnight stay. Then we headed for Manila the next day. Well, we not including my mother. She's there until now caring for my ailing grandma.

near the water

Mambukal Resort

It seems like we left smalls parts of ourselves there. I was glad I took that time off from everything. I hope we can do that again soon.

Pictures speak louder than words, so click this to view some pics we took during the vacation.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

See you on the Flipside!

I am so confused by this
I know that life is hit or miss
Days are stung by too much sun
I think that you may be the one

~ "Story" by Maroon 5

After the crazy TC5 (The Click Five) fever sweeping the city, the mall-hopping weekend and work (of course), I’m back!

I got no pictures yet though. Maybe I’ll upload them soon. =)

This blog will be in hiatus for the next few days. I’m leaving tomorrow and I can’t wait to be off from work for a long time! Maybe this is just what I need. I haven’t had this long a vacation in years. Work’s been taking its stressful toll on me lately… I guess it’s not just work. There are some things I keep thinking even if they’re just really a waste of my time… but I don’t want to dwell on it.

Anyway, I just read Stephenie Meyer’s “Twilight”. I doubt if I’m ever going to settle from anything less than Edward Cullen himself. Hahaha! I think this is the second time I felt like sacrificing my mortality to be a bloodsucker’s victim. The first one was after reading Anne Rice’s Vampire Chronicles. Hahaha! I love fiction. It makes life more enchanting. =)

Maybe there’s an Edward Cullen in the City of Smiles ? Who knows? Daydream believer! Haha!

See ya all soon! =)

Monday, May 26, 2008

The Time of My Life

I have read blog articles and news about American Idol, David Cook being a pop artist posing as a rocker. They say that coming from American Idol, he will have difficulty penetrating the rock scene similar to what Chris Daughtry experienced. They say it's gonna be more difficult for him since he bagged first place and AI is such a pop tv program. I don't know why people like to put labels and stereotypes. Music should be universal and there shouldn't be any delineations in the first place. I, for example, am not just into pure pop. I also like alternative, rock, RnB, whatever suits my fancy. If the song is good and the artist has talent, I support them. Some artists don't even belong in just one music type or genre. Some songs may be considered pop/RnB/soul all at the same time.

Music is for everyone and as long as David Cook makes good music-- whether pop or rock, there will always be people who would support him and I think, that's what matters. =)

The first time I heard "The Time of My Life", I already loved the lyrics. This song is going to be David Cook's first single. It has been on repeat on my playlist for the past couple of days now. I know a lot of people are also searching for that "magic rainbow on the horizon", so a lot can relate to it. The song is inspiring and I really hope Cookie visits the country one of these days. I'm not gonna miss that for sure. =)

In other news, an actor, Rob Knox, who played Ravenclaw student Marcus Belby in the latest Harry Potter movie "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince", was stabbed to death in a bar. According to the articles I read online, he was protecting his brother and it all started with a mobile phone. Tsk tsk. Life is pretty unpredictable.

The next few days will breeze by, I'm sure. I am facing some decision-making situations and I am trying to weigh all the odds before making a choice. June 6 is nearly here. I still am anxious and excited at the same time. I haven't packed my bags yet. I know I still have a lot of work to do before leaving for Bacolod. I'll just take this a day at a time.

The Time of My Life
(by David Cook)

I've been waiting for my dreams to turn into something
I could believe in and looking for that
Magic rainbow on the horizon
I couldn't see it until I let go
Gave into love I watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment and live it out loud
I know this is the time, this is the time
To be more than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time this is the time of my life
The time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished into the air
Would left me in pieces but now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings and all that I needed
Was there all along within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

So I'll taste every moment and live it out loud
I know this is the time, this is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time this is the time of my life
The time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide facing the sun

I'll taste every moment and live it out loud
I know this is the time, this is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time this is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time this is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Boxers vs. Briefs

This is very interesting. David Cook and David Archuleta (of American Idol) both made TV commercials for Guitar Hero.

I usually would prefer boxers on men, but after watching this, I think briefs are way, way sexier!!! Hahaha! =)

Thursday, May 22, 2008

David Cookie*!

David Cook won!!! Woohoo!!! =)

I have to be honest, it was not expected. I mean, after watching Simon's not-so-nice feedback about his last 3 songs, I can see why David Cook was emotional and very nervous.

I had to hurry home after my shift earlier to watch the American Idol finale live on TV. At the back of my mind, I was still thinking he might lose. I enjoyed the program and seeing Filipino Renaldo Lapuz perform made me laugh. The performances were great and I nearly swooned when David Cook sang the lines "Oh thinking about our younger years... There was only you and me... We were young and wild and free...". *sigh*

Oh and those Ford Hybrids look cool! =)

It was good that Simon made a public apology to Cook, but then again, it was also lame because he did it after the votes were cast. Oh well, no matter what, Cook still won. He deserves it, in my opinion. David Archuleta is talented and he really has a powerful voice. He's too young though and I don't think he's "ripe" enough. He lacks confidence and star quality when he's on stage. David Cook, on the other hand, may look like a rockstar, but he's versatile. He can croon a ballad and rock out with a band. Most of the songs he covered were better than the original (again, IMHO). I appreciated Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby" after listening to his version. It feels like he meant the lyrics. There was no "doobeedoop-dong" part that may distract me from knowing what the song is all about. I also love "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing". I think he was in his element when he sang it. He looks good when playing the guitar. Aww! Now, I am looking for the studio version of "Dare You To Move". I think if he made an album full of revivals, it would still rock. \m/

I have never been *this* affected with any American Idol season before. I am biased, I know. So, sue me. Haha! I'm just happy he won. I love him to bits. Hahaha! =)

*pet name "cookie" courtesy of Ian. Haha!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


A few weeks from now, my entire family is going to Bacolod -- my birthplace. I haven't been there for more than 11 years now. If only my grandma was well, we wouldn't plan on doing this for her birthday. But she's not and this may be the best time to visit her.

It has been a while. The city, I heard, looks different now. I can still remember glimpses of the place from my childhood memories. It's just a short one (6 days) for me and my siblings because we have to go back to work. Yeah, we have to earn the borrowed money we needed to go through this in the first place. There were several hindrances to this but my parents are quite excited about this trip. Since it is bound to happen, I might as well look forward to it.

I don't know exactly what to expect. I just want to have a good time. Besides, it's a week off from work. I must try not to think of the humongous workload that will be waiting for me when I come back. I'm gonna see people who grew older. Kids who are now taller than me. I'm gonna see new places and old ones. Heck, I'm gonna ride on a plane again! Yeah, it really has been a while...

My grandmother lives in the province-- in Murcia, Negros Occidental, near Kanlaon volcano. The place is about a couple of hours away from the city proper. I am quite excited to see the renovated Mambucal resort, it's hot springs, pool and waterfalls, which is just about 20 minutes away from my grandma's place. Oh how I wish I have the means to get a digital camera before the trip.

Before I leave, I should take advantage of what I have now in case I have to be stuck in the mountains with mosquitoes galore. I have to watch the finale of American Idol. Geez... I really hope Cook wins. Hehe! I also have to catch a couple of movies first (Prince Caspian and Sex and the City the movie?) and probably buy a book I can bring there (Twilight perhaps?).

I am quite torn. A part of me wants to go and another part wants to stay. I think I just have to go with the flow. If this feels right, then I should do it. Some people are gonna be missed but my love for travel beckons. =)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

There's a Fine, Fine Line

A friend reminded me of this song last night. I first heard it when I watched Avenue Q (locally, of course) with Ian a few months ago and I fell in love with the song right then and there.

Here's Kate Monster and Mary Faber singing the song. It's one of the videos I found in Youtube.

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.
There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...
There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

You said it all, Kate Monster. Now,let's give each other a hug. *hugs* =)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Whirls and Twirls

After the whirlwind week last week, I have caught some sleep during the weekend and I'm back to my zombie mode at work. I can't imagine I went through a post-birthday party, a relative's death, a sort-of family reunion, a friend's despedida party, a mother's day celebration and some work in-between in a span of a few days. There were mixed emotions, mixed drinks and mixed expressions. Maybe that's why I also feel mixed up today. Hah! But then there's this guy... this darn guy I couldn't stop thinking... umm... never mind. I am actually trying my best to forget him.

Anyway, here are some pics from Day's post-birthday party. Click this to view the entire album. Thank you, Day for the pictures. =)

posing with the donuts

pretty waves

a toast to friendship

Before I forget, (belated) Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there! I know we're nothing (but void? hehe!) without you. Love you, Mama! Mwah! I hope you like our "gift", Hehe! I am not sure where I can grab some pics for Gabe's despedida party (I'm gonna miss you, Gabe! Huhuhu!) We will all be waiting for you! Oh, and I am looking forward to next weekend. I hope I can see some of my cousins and we can hang out together. It's been a while really. The entire family is also planning to go home to Bacolod City (after 11 years or so!) next month. I just have to think where I can get the money for that... Oh wow. Hahaha! I guess I have to work my arse off some more. =)

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Finding a Door

I'm a few blocks away from the building where I work but I am not going to work tonight. I am not sick. I am waiting for my sister because we are going to a wake tonight (again). My aunt-in-law (my mother's cousin-in-law and close friend) died a few days ago and she is going to be buried tomorrow. My mother wants the entire family to be present. As a sign of respect, I filed a short notice for leave tonight. Good thing I did not have any problems.

Talking about death is not really a comfortable topic even between friends. Lately, I couldn't help but think about it with all of what's happening around me. Losing a loved-one is my greatest fear and I'd rather die first instead of experiencing that. But then again, death (aside from change and taxes) is one of the facts of life no one can escape from.

Despite the heat today, it rained hard earlier tonight. Maybe that's the reason why I feel empty. Or maybe it's just the time of the month. There is this void in me right now and I cannot point to what exactly can fill it.

Good thing there's tv and I had it all to myself earlier. Hahaha! I was able to watch "American Idol" and I think the remaining 3 are very deserving to be on top. They're all good performers although I am rooting for David Cook (woot!). They show earlier just made me smile. Maroon 5 performed their latest single "If I Never See Your Face Again" and I found some clips on Youtube of the making of their new video featuring Rihanna. I can't wait to see the final cut.

Since I got nothing better to do, I answered a blogthing quiz:

The Keys to Your Life

Anything good in your life comes from your ability to play and be free.

The best way for you to solve a problem is to let go of it.

Anything bad in your life comes from sinking to the level of those around you.

Remember to lift people up, and refuse to participate in anything petty.

If I have the keys, I think I better find the door.

Monday, April 28, 2008


The past few weeks have been difficult for me when it comes to emotional matters. I blame my sensitive nature for that. I have been torn whether I should continue feeling this way or letting go and moving on. Lord knows how hard I tried to convince myself, and even some of my closest friends, to finally make a decision. After weighing the pros and cons, would I be totally honest to myself and to whoever is involved and risk (bad) judgment and misunderstanding?

I don’t want to make a big deal out of it but I can’t deny the fact that the “issue” at hand (or whatever it is that I am trying not to feel) has been on the back of my mind for some time now. The sad thing is it’s been creeping in and out of my subconscious like a nightmare or a fairy tale waiting to happen.

Maybe the changes that will occur in a few days are just some of the signs being thrown my way. Nothing’s in it for me. I have to look in another direction to fill that void. I don’t want to misinterpret actions and assume conclusions. That’s stupid. But then sometimes, when the heart gains control, the brain seems to cease functioning.

Maybe after a few years, I will read this and laugh at myself for feeling this way. Time has that quality of diminishing the so-called importance of some events in life. It really is tough if one’s mind says one thing and the heart says another. If I choose either decision, will I be able to live and have no regrets?

Thursday, April 24, 2008


What Your Feet Say About You:

You are not very expressive. You tend to keep your emotions to yourself.

You are a somewhat passionate person. A few things get you very fired up, but you're usually pretty laid back.

You are not a very assertive person. If something doesn't come easily to you, it's not worth having.

You take a while to fall in love, but once you do, you stay pretty attached to your partner.

You are not afraid of anything. You are brave and courageous, even when most people would be terrified.

You are intellectual and philosophical. You are more concerned with thoughts than action.

You are an amazingly hard worker. You aren't spoiled and you don't mind getting your hands dirty.

You are easily influenced by other people. You're quite impressionable, so you should only be around people who are a good influence.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Summer Lovin'

Finally! The vacation we have all been waiting for happened last April 19-20, 2008. Some friends from work and I went to Coralview Resort in Morong, Bataan. It was my first time there and I have to say, despite the glitches, the trip still created warm memories. I have no camera so I'm grabbing some pics from Day's Multiply album and Maroi's Multiply album.

I created my own one in Multiply so I can share the pictures with my family and other friends. Here are some samples:

getting ready to leave

going to the beach

the Bear family picture

on the boat

on the water

Click here to view more pics at my Multiply album.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Random Facts

It's been a while since I blogged. I usually don't go online when I am home and I just enjoyed a 3-day off from work. This weekend, some of officemates/friends and I are going to Morong, Bataan for my most-awaited out-of-town gimmick this summer. I may not be able to go online for a few more days but I just can't wait to see new places and bathe in the ocean!

Before the short hiatus, let me just fill this up.

Tagged by Chiqui-girl. ;)

Share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. Then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.

– Each blogger must post these rules first.
– Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
– Bloggers who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
– At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
– Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. I started collecting books when I was in high school. Most of these were Sweet Valley, Sweet Dreams, Love Stories and Christopher Pike. I filled up my 5-level book case in a span of 3 years when I started working and buying books using my own money.

2. My sister and I have a complete W.I.T.C.H. mag collection starting from issue number 1. A friend used to offer me money to buy the entire collection 3 years ago but I refused. ;)

3. I had a fascination of the English royal family, not just because I fancy Prince William. Haha! Princess Diana died when I was in first year college and I used to collect magazines and read articles about the British monarchy. I wrote a term paper about the royal family for my COMM II subject and got the highest grade for that. ;)

4. If I can choose a pet or an animal companion, I would choose a dolphin (water) or a panda (land). I want to go to China and visit the pandas (especially the babies!) one of these days.

5. I kept a written diary since I was in grade 4. I stopped when I was in high school and started blogging again when I was in college. I still have my diaries from grades 4 to 1st year college and when I read it, I laugh at my shallow grievances, crushes and school woes. I can also see the changes in my handwriting as I grew older or depending on the mood I was in when I wrote a certain entry. It's pretty interesting.

6. I am 100% Ilongga. We speak the dialect at home but I haven't gone back to Bacolod City (my hometown) for more than 12 years now.

7. I am a geek and a lot of people know that, but then I wouldn't be a "Lord of the Rings" fanatic without the convincing powers of my friend, Laurice, who dragged me to watch the movie. I read "The Hobbit" 2 years before the LOTR trilogy movie was shown and I didn't finish it because I got bored. Hahaha! After the movie, I read the LOTR trilogy books. Then, I read "The Hobbit" again and finished it in about 2 days. Now, I can't wait for "The Hobbit" movie to be shown. ;)

8. I had my first kiss when I was 23 years old. I was wary about getting into relationships because most of the men who broke my heart turned out to be gay. I still am careful about that even until now. =)

I tag HMC, Day, JZ, Mae, Maroi, Laurice, Ian and Karenine! =)

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Disturbingly Profound

I can be profoundly disturbing sometimes too. Hehe! It has been a while since I answered a Blogthings quiz. I missed it so, here's a new one:

You Are Disturbingly Profound

You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense.

Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you.

Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people.

No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them.

I guess I have to agree with the results.

Anyway, anyone out there who wants to recommend a nice and not-so-expensive resort in Laiya, Batangas, with available rooms for about 18 people on April 18-19? I can't wait to go out of town and have fun this summer! =)

Friday, March 28, 2008

Into the Unknown

I am tired but I am ok. They say the only thing that's constant in this life is change. Change is good sometimes. We learn from change. The downside change brings to OC (obsessive-compulsive) people like me is getting all whacked out when the routine suddenly gets affected.

In the near future, there will be some changes-- at work and at home. I can live with it. I have to experience it even if not all of them are welcome. I guess that's a part of being human. Nevertheless, there are several things I am looking forward to in the coming weeks. Summer, for example, would mean a chance for me to go out-of-town with friends again. Finally. My family might also go home to the province (Negros Occidental) after more than 10 years come June if finances allow.

There are also things I am dreading about. I still cannot imagine where I am, career-wise, before the year ends. I guess I'll just take this one day at a time. My mother is still in the province and my Lola actually suffered a mild stroke as well aside from her gastric ulcer. She spent 5 days in the ICU and I am glad that she's feeling better now. I don't want to think of the finances anymore or where I could be a few months from now. I don't even wanna think of my non-existent love life. It just so happened that the "Drew" I've been thinking about lately is not the "Drew" I expected him to be. It is very disappointing.

No, I don't wanna think about it. I am getting a headache again. Let me just leave this song. This one's almost perfect again:

"Stop and Stare"
~* by OneRepublic*~

This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set
on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can you see what I see
They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,
I'm a run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

Sunday, March 23, 2008


My sister said the lyrics are so high-school! Hahaha! But this is how I feel. It's almost perfect, really. I just have to change the name "Drew". I heard it being played several times before while I get ready for work. That night I came from the wake, I was in the cab going to work again when the song played. I just looked out the window and listened to the lyrics. Yes, I've been loving this song lately. I wonder if "Drew" will ever realize it?

Teardrops on my Guitar
(by Taylor Swift)

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

I can't help it. I feel like I'm back in high school again. =(

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Rainy Days

Despite the summer heat outside, it seems like hard rain has been pouring over my life the past weekend.

Sunday was relatively peaceful. I attended Palm Sunday mass at Greenbelt church. I have started going to mass regularly for the past 3 Sundays now. After mass, I spent some time alone reading a book. That place is beautiful. Sunday mornings, when there is no mall crowd but just church-goers, give me quiet moments in that otherwise noisy mall. I got home at midday and I was able to catch on sleep.

Greenbelt church

When I woke up Monday morning, I learned from my sister that my grandmother was rushed to the hospital again. She was vomiting blood. I had the idea that it was severe gastric ulcer because of her medical history. My mother flew to Bacolod Monday afternoon to visit my Lola. Lola has started pooping blood as well. As of this blog entry, she is in the ICU and has been transfused with 5 bags of blood. I hope and pray that everything is going to be alright. Whatever God chooses to do for my grandmother, I just pray for strength for my family. When in stress, Mama doesn't sleep and eat. My siblings and I have been reminding her to put some food in her stomach otherwise her own ulcer may be aggravated.

Let me rewind a little bit. Monday morning was my sister's Oath Taking ceremony. My parents were supposed to go. Of course, it was a milestone for her. I can remember my own Oath Taking a few years back and it was an unforgettable moment. Because of what happened to my Lola, my mother decided not to go. I was going to take her place instead. I saw my sister's sad face and I knew I had to convince my mother to go. Even if it means us (my brother and I) buying her tickets for her and bringing her luggage to SMX (oath-taking ceremeny venue) so she can go directly to the airport. Since my mother is just going to take advantage of cheaper priced tickets, she said she had to be at the airport really early and that means missing my sister's oath taking. I was really disappointed and I was angry too. My first thought was, how can my mother choose to go to the province over my sister's Oath Taking ceremony? Her decision just goes to show what her priorities are. So, we went on with it. The ceremony was, for the most part, touching. I can't help but think that my mother was supposed to be in my place beside my father. But after the updates that we are getting from Bacolod, with all the things going on with my grandmother, I felt guilty of thinking that way. Yes, my mother had a choice and I just realized she would have loved to be there for my sister but my grandmother can't wait. I can just imagine how torn she was then. She had to make a decision. I am so sorry.

Papa and sis

with Papa

with sis

Monday evening, I received another sad news. Tien Dalao, a good friend from way back in my Montalban (Rizal) rotation days, a very lively and sunny personality, a smart, young, creative, sexy and sassy girl, a gifted Occupation Therapist, someone who would never fail to light up another person's day, passed away from pneumonia complications. I was flabbergasted! I mean, she just posted some comments on my blog a few weeks back. OMG. I felt numb. I was in a meeting that time and I just felt like I was lost for a moment. I didn't know how to react. I asked when the burial date is and my college classmate told me she had no idea and we have to call the funeral home. OMG. I mean, how could that happen? It's summer already and I was looking forward to her pictures on her blog! I wanted to see more pictures of her, the people and places she would have seen. I can imagine her surfing or just being a beach bum somewhere remote and untouched. I'm going to miss her and the way she always makes people, especially her special "kids" happy.

pretty girl

Tien in Batanes

I stole these pics (some of her latest) from her Xanga site. I hope she doesn't mind. I know she's probably smiling where she is right now. She has touched a lot of lives. Her mission in this world was complete. I am going to miss her wonderful pictures and deep thoughts. I am going to miss her.

Tonight, I am going back to work. I will momentarily forget the craziness the weekend brought me. I will now have to focus on the uncertainties of my so-called career. Life must go on as they say. But I know it will never be the same again..

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Maroon 5: Sexy Time!

I just came from the Maroon 5 "It Won't Be Soon Before Long" concert. Whew!

Let me just catch my breath...


Ok, I like the band and their songs and my sister adores lusts for Adam Levine. There was this Maroon 5 interview in the "Rolling Stones" magazine and according to that interview, Adam has an ego befitting a rockstar. When I saw them perform live, I have to agree-- HE IS A ROCKSTAR! He's scorching, hormone-raging HOTT! Gawd!!! =p

I promised myself not to rave when I blog about this but I can't help it. The tickets were expensive compared to the usual ticket prices for foreign artists, but when I saw the stage and the performance, I knew it was worth it. My sis even said that they probably brought everything-- from stage props to lights, etc. (thus the expensive tickets) because everything was in sync to the music. The lights were so cool! I think she might be right.

They sang about 15 songs. "About" because there was a half song sang and it wasn't theirs. The performance lasted for about one and a half hours. It started late but at least Araneta Coliseum was almost filled up. They sang 3 of my fave songs-- "She Will Be Loved", "Won't Go Home Without You" and "Sunday Morning" so I am quite happy with that. I wish they could have added "Back At Your Door" but I can't ask for too much. The new drummer was great too. Of course, Mr. Levine couldn't stop introducing Mr. Valentine but then again, I have to say he was awesome! And Adam Levine! OMG! He was just sensual! Black sleeveless shirt, black skinny jeans, black leather boots, tattoos, good looks, the works! Yes, he's a good singer, he dances well (I call him "crazy legs" because of that) and he can still hit those high notes while performing live. But when he smiles (everytime the audience shouts or sings along), when he poses and strums his guitar, girls swoon! They ended with "Sweetest Goodbye" and Adam's rockin' solo. I think my sister cried. Hahaha! We were so glad he chose music over his basketball career. =)

My sister told me to view this "Soap Disco" video of Kara's Flowers (previous name of Maroon 5) and Adam looks more like a basketball star here. I think he's just 17 when this video was taken. He has always been a looker. Here it is. Enjoy! =)

Friday, February 22, 2008

Sisterly Pride

I just wanna let the whole world know I am proud of my sister who passed the most recent Philippine Nursing Licensure Examinations!!! *woot*


click to view the bigger version
click picture for a bigger view
(picture courtesy of Ian)

We are so proud of you!!! =)

70's Night Out

Despite the problems at home, the toxicity of work and the uncertainties of life in general, last Monday night was a date I had been looking forward to. We just waited for the perfect setting and the lack of work schedule clashes. I don’t want to go into details but I can still vividly remember the memorable and mostly funny moments of that night. It has been a while since I went out at night for fun and it was a welcome change. Besides, it was one Sponge Cola gig I don't wanna miss.

We bought a really late birthday present for Chris. I know last year's Star Wars Trilogy poster present was still much cooler but then again, this year's was just as sweet. This was his reaction when he saw it.

Oh Sh*t!

Hahaha! The gig was a short one. It was a slow set but I like that-- less rock-and-roll-y. My sis even missed it but she surely enjoyed the "after party". We had short talk with the band members but mostly with Yael and Chris. For those who have been asking me if they're nice in person, yes they are REALLY nice. I hope we get to watch another gig soon. Less crowd, more talk.

Oh I haven't tasted the Stormtrooper chocolate cupcakes but they sure smelled good!

Sponge troopers

Yael on vocals

For more info about the personalized cupcakes (they are cute, aren't they?), just go to Gel's Multiply site. All photos courtesy of Ian Roxas (thank you!). =)

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Finding What's Missing

I'm a bit jaded about Valentine's Day. I have been in a long relationship before but I still see it as a commercialized event. If you asked me what I did on Valentine's Day, I'd tell you I went to work and went home early and slept the day away. It was refreshing. I missed the traffic and the PDA's too! Hahaha!

Maybe my heart is missing because lately my mind's on overdrive. I've been too focused on work that what's left of my so-called social life is distributed to family and really close friends. Everytime I feel the usual heart-thumping followed by cheek-flushing, I'd distract myself. No, I am not giving up on love. I still feel it. I think I just need a jumpstart.

It wasn't a boring Valentine's Day though. I wore black because we had this famous couples costume contest at work and my friends and I joined (and we won!).

Ate Dennis as Harry Fotah and me as Cho Va

hippie (John Lamon and Yoko Sayo) and geeky couples

My shift was actually fun that day. I just enjoyed my officemates' company and it's all good. See more pictures here.

I actually found bits and pieces of my missing heart when I saw this PostSecret Valentine video:

Postsecret: A Valentine Video

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If that doesn't work, just click this link. This really touched me. May we find the love that we need and want, not just on Valentine's, but always.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008


I was waiting for my sister to arrive. I was in the mall near our place. This is what usually happens when I'm bored.

I think I need a long vacation.