Friday, February 26, 2010

Have you ever been in love?

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit or armor, so that nothing can hurt you. Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

~* Neil Gaiman *~

I don't hate love. Well, not all the time. I have a love-hate relationship with LOVE. Hehe! =)

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Yesterday's Lesson

Yesterday, I learned that:

Just because you're lonely doesn't mean you have to settle for someone or something lesser than you think you deserve.

I didn't know I can be masochistic at times. I watched "Valentine's Day" alone. Don't get me wrong, I am used to watching movies alone for years now. I actually enjoy that because I can show my reactions without worrying how people beside me would think, especially when I laugh out loud or sniffle my tears. The movie was a laugh trip most of the time. The last part was touching. I love those kinds of films. It reminded me a bit of "Love Actually" wherein the stories of the characters are inter-connected. They have these different, but realistic endings since not everyone lives happily ever after. I like that.

After the film, I enjoyed a momentary but peaceful "alone time" with a hot cup of cappuccino and music. I needed that before going back to the madness called reality. It was great while it lasted.

Today, three of my friends will undergo the sacrament of matrimony. Now those are people I know who never settled until they felt that they were with the person they want to be with forever. I know I can be jaded with love sometimes, but going through this day, I can't help but be myself again-- an utterly hopeless romantic. Kris, Rej and Oneal: Congratulations and best wishes to you! May your married life be filled with wonderful memories you will cherish through the years. =)

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Sunday, February 14, 2010

Neil Gaiman in Manila again!

Click here for more info at the Fully Booked site.

March 17, 2010. Rockwell Tent. 7 PM.

March 18, 2010. North Court, Power Plant Mall. 4 PM.

Another event I am definitely not going to miss!


Click this to read more about it here.

August 24, 2010.

The next and final installment of Suzanne Collins's "Hunger Games" trilogy.

I can't wait!!! =)

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Q and A

I have read this years ago and stumbled on this again today online. I don't even know who wrote it. Reading it still has the same effect on me, so I wanna keep it here and share it with anyone who views it.


If you see me walking the road with someone else
It’s not because I like his company
It’s because you’re not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
It’s not because he pleases me
It’s because you’re too deaf to hear my heartbeat.

If you feel me falling with someone new
It’s not because I love him
Because you’re not there to catch me fall.

If you feel lost, I, too,am nowhere
I, too, don’t know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other’s path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don’t let me walk with him
It’s you I want to walk with
Don’t let me talk of him
It’s you I want to talk with
Don’t let me fall for him
It’s you I want to fall in love with


When you thought I wasn’t brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn’t want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn’t there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you’ve already grabbed the branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don’t know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other’s path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don’t let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don’t let me talk of something else
It’s you I want to talk with
Don’t let me fall for someone else
It’s you I want to fall in love with.