Date and Time

I look at the calendar of my planner and see dates made meaningful with you in it.

I look at future days and I see wishful thinking notes hoping to visit places and experience new things with you. I wanted to get to know you more.

I look at your birthday and I see a handwritten wish that I hope we could be more that what we were before-- more in the sense that we learn more from life and from each other. More because I just don't want us to be "special friends" who just date.

I look at my watch and realize that time without you has never been the same, but I know I chose this. This is the best time for me to move on because love is not supposed to hurt like this.

Now, I wish that time can be a friend. I wish that I can heal through time. Maybe another day will come when I can say I am truly happy again.

Divided We Fall

"The depth of your belief and the strength of your conviction determines the power of your personality." - Brian Tracey

I'm the type of person who gets attracted to someone's physical aspects, but falls in love with someone's personality. I wish your personality was as strong as your hands when they hold mine or your arms when they hug me. I wish you were strong enough to fight for what we had-- whatever that was. I wish your beliefs were strong enough to know that what we had was real and that I was willing to give all my love to you.

Alas, you were not the strong man I imagined. I had to find strength within myself-- strength to let you go. Thank you for everything.

Boomerang Wishes

I wish you happiness.

I wish you sunshine when it rains and drizzle during summer. I wish you faith during desperate times. I wish you mystery and adventure to make your life exciting. I wish you confidence when you're struggling to stand on your feet. I wish you light that will light your dark paths. I wish you hope to help you make it through lonely nights. I wish you inspiration to make you look forward to the future. I wish you good health so you can travel far and wide.

Most of all, I wish you love-- a love that you can be proud of, a love that is unconditional and true and kind, a love that makes all former loves stepping stones and lessons learned, a love that you truly deserve.

I wish that you wish the same for me.

Images

Random snapshots flash through my brain-- memories I don't want forgotten and moments I want to etch in my mind for as long as I can.

My everyday route is now composed of places with you in it. You were there sitting beside me during a bus ride. You were looking at me during a train ride. We were laughing together while walking along these shops in the mall. This was where we ate and where you bought my Valentine's chocolates. These used-to-be normal events are now special for me because of your presence. Now, I'm back to being alone.

I hope that one day soon, these images will be replaced by other memories. If not, I hope I can recall them again without the sadness. I hope.