Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Starting Anew

Sometimes, things or people aren't what they seem.

Sometimes, when a door closes, another window opens.

Sometimes, when a chapter ends, another one begins.

Somehow, I can't help but feel disappointed. I have to blame myself for expecting too much. Life isn't perfect. People don't always stay. In as much as I would want to and I would gladly exert all my effort, some things just don't last. It's sad.

Good thing, there's always a diversion. When people come and fade away in life, new faces will appear and offer a smile. New personalities will emerge. Sometimes, they remind you of the old ones who fade away. Sometimes, they're a welcome change. They won't replace the old ones. They never will, but it is refreshing. It reminds me of the changes in season. Right now, I am having a cold winter, but I know there will be spring soon.

My horoscope today states:
Your more self-nurturing instincts are coming to the forefront today, and while it might send you down an anti-social path for a while, in the end it's a very good thing to start listening to your own needs right now. Start forgiving yourself for what you may have done, and think about where you want to take things from here -- instead of wondering why things don't always end up being the way you wanted them to be. It's a time of reflection, but it's also a time of healing.

Anti-social path, here I come? Nah. Hahaha! Healing it is. =)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

All Clear!

I processed my clearance at work today. I felt nostalgic knowing that after more than 3 years, I will not be stepping foot in that office building to work anymore. It was good though because I also felt relieved. I know I won't be dragging myself to work again. I will be bringing good memories from that place. I am also going to miss the people, no doubt about it. I am grateful that I have known them.

Moving on, I will start with my orientation/induction tomorrow with the new company. I feel excited and anxious at the same time. I will be meeting new people and they will meet me as well. I would have to give it my best shot there. I promise myself that. I am looking forward to it.

The lunar new year is almost here. I have heard that the year of the ox is a good year for those born under the year of the monkey. I feel the same way. For instance, this career move is a risk I am taking and the year just began. I have the whole year to make happy moments. I know I will do well there.

Matters of the heart? Now, that's a different "matter". I have already told my friends that I have the feeling love will find me this year. I just don't know when yet. Maybe soon. I don't even know if I have known him already or will still meet him in the coming days. I miss the feeling of falling in love again. I miss cuddling and kissing and hugging. I miss romance and sweetness. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining about being single. Subtle flirting with whomever I want has its advantages. Hahaha! I just miss having someone to call "mine". =)

I have time to kill today that's why I'm blogging again. I am about to open a whole new chapter in my life. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Four More

After more than three years, I am finally resigning from the company I am currently working in. This is the longest job I've had so far. I have met and known a lot of people along the way. I have, hopefully, made life-long friendships as well. Now, I have four more days before my so-called tenure is over. A part of me is relieved but anxious, another part is sad and lonely. There is no doubt I am going to miss the people, but I can't wait to get away from the work.

It's tough when there comes a point in my life where I have to choose. Making a life-changing decision is one of the most difficult things I go through, but then again, it's a new year and I know I have a lot to look forward to along the way. It is exciting to face the unknown but scary to go out of my comfort zone. Yes, it feels like I'm being torn in two.

I have always believed that happiness is a choice and goodbyes are not forever. This is such a small world and with willingness, there is a way to still connect and communicate.

Four more days! I am going to make the best out of the remaining days. I just know that I will never forget every experience and every memory I have of the people who mean so much to me.