Into the Unknown

I am tired but I am ok. They say the only thing that's constant in this life is change. Change is good sometimes. We learn from change. The downside change brings to OC (obsessive-compulsive) people like me is getting all whacked out when the routine suddenly gets affected.


In the near future, there will be some changes-- at work and at home. I can live with it. I have to experience it even if not all of them are welcome. I guess that's a part of being human. Nevertheless, there are several things I am looking forward to in the coming weeks. Summer, for example, would mean a chance for me to go out-of-town with friends again. Finally. My family might also go home to the province (Negros Occidental) after more than 10 years come June if finances allow.


There are also things I am dreading about. I still cannot imagine where I am, career-wise, before the year ends. I guess I'll just take this one day at a time. My mother is still in the province and my Lola actually suffered a mild stroke as well aside from her gastric ulcer. She spent 5 days in the ICU and I am glad that she's feeling better now. I don't want to think of the finances anymore or where I could be a few months from now. I don't even wanna think of my non-existent love life. It just so happened that the "Drew" I've been thinking about lately is not the "Drew" I expected him to be. It is very disappointing.


No, I don't wanna think about it. I am getting a headache again. Let me just leave this song. This one's almost perfect again:


"Stop and Stare"
~* by OneRepublic*~


This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set
on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Ohhh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,
I'm a run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?