scribbled on 6 November 2007 | 8:40 A.M.
It's been a month since I started my "new" job. I am still adjusting and I hope everything will be fine and dandy. I wish I could start saving on my own but I still am broke. Practically all my earnings still go to my family. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
The past month has brought some changes into my life. I have a different sleep cycle now and my body clock is coping up. I notice I've been sleeping a lot lately too. I hope I won't spend my days off just sleeping because that's what I end up doing since my days off were changed from weekends to Wed-Thur instead. I have also come to realize some things. Some are not even "realizations" per se. They are actually truths I've learned over the years and my experiences lately just made me remember them.
(1) Not all people are what they seem. Hannibal Lecter from "The Silence of the Lambs" said, "To assume is to make an ASS out of U and ME..." It makes sense. People may trick or con or just be pure evil despite the angelic exterior. People can disappoint. They can be selfish and not care about other people's efforts. They can be lazy or stupid. On the other hand, people can be surprisingly helpful. They may turn out to be the persons I've been wanting to meet all my life. Scary and intimidating people can turn out to be friends I can share jokes and have fun with.
(2) The things or happenings I dread may actually be beneficial to me. Things happen for a reason. Sometimes, the reasons may seem far-fetched or "unreasonable" but eventually, I will learn from them. Maybe a certain thing can't happen because a better thing is on the way or maybe it's just not meant to be. The good things is, human beings are designed to cope with the environment. It may be tough at times but I am surviving.
(3) Real friends will always be there for me no matter what. Eventhough I seldom see them or talk to them, I know they're just a message, email or phone call away. I see to it that I am still connected with them because I know they are for keeps. It may take a lifetime to look for a real friend and without them, the world can be a very lonely place.
(4) Mood swings can strike when least expected but being mysel is still what matters. I can be manic-depressive or obsessive-compulsive. I may scare people away but there are those who give me a chance and stick with me. I can't force people to like me and no one can force me to like someone either. Sometimes, we just need an opportunity to get to know each other. Everything has it's own place and time. I can't please everybody but the Golden Rule still applies.
(5) Allot a time for fun with friends or family and alone time too. It's healthy and it keeps things in perspective. Romance can take a backseat after family and career but a little bit of flirting won't hurt. Haha! That's just in my opinion. I am trying to learn the art of "subtle flirting" on my own. The downside is, the object of my flirtation may not catch my "subtleties". Besides, real men are usually insensitive and full of themselves. Hahaha! Anyway, I usually spend my alone time listening to music while walking home. I like going home really early so I could walk a few blocks instead of take a cab. I would just put on my earphones and it would be a perfect way to end my day. Even a slight drizzle can't dampen my moment. I am having little time for reading nowadays but I read a chapter or two before I go to sleep. During my days off, I balance my time between family and friends (if my friends are available). I also don't complain if I end up staying at home. Sometimes I prefer that.
The list may go on. Maybe I could update this after a year or so. Haha!
Got any realizations lately? Anyone who wants to add something to the list is free to do so. =)