So far, I have coped in two ways:
1. Keep myself busy when I'm awake.
2. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.
Friday, October 27, 2017
Thursday, October 26, 2017
Moving On: Day 4
I think I am in the ANGER stage of grief.
I feel like a bottle fizzing and waiting to burst but I have not opened my cap yet.
I wait for the day that I will just explode and cry my eyes out. Maybe get drunk in the process, who knows? I hope to experience that day soon.
I feel like a bottle fizzing and waiting to burst but I have not opened my cap yet.
I wait for the day that I will just explode and cry my eyes out. Maybe get drunk in the process, who knows? I hope to experience that day soon.
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
Moving On: Day 3
I often catch myself talking to myself and it's all good.
Yesterday, I started giving myself "pep talks". I found myself doing the following:
1. Look at the mirror during a shower and tell my reflection all the red flags that I ignored. I have to remind myself that this was expected and I am now suffering the consequences of my decisions and actions.
2. Close my eyes and turn off the lights when I am alone in the room. I remind myself that I am worth more than how I've been treated. I console myself in the hope that maybe, someone way better will love me the way I want to be loved. I think of the plans for myself in the near future.
I will repeat these processes until the ideas sink in.
Yesterday, I started giving myself "pep talks". I found myself doing the following:
1. Look at the mirror during a shower and tell my reflection all the red flags that I ignored. I have to remind myself that this was expected and I am now suffering the consequences of my decisions and actions.
2. Close my eyes and turn off the lights when I am alone in the room. I remind myself that I am worth more than how I've been treated. I console myself in the hope that maybe, someone way better will love me the way I want to be loved. I think of the plans for myself in the near future.
I will repeat these processes until the ideas sink in.
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Moving On: Day 2
It's always during the wee hours of the morning when I feel even sadder.
My mind's been reeling looking for reasons why it happened. Last night, I was really angry that I slept for 8 straight hours. I think that anger was good for my body. Maybe this is a phase I need to go through.
My mind's been reeling looking for reasons why it happened. Last night, I was really angry that I slept for 8 straight hours. I think that anger was good for my body. Maybe this is a phase I need to go through.
Monday, October 23, 2017
Moving On: Day 1
So far, I have already done the following:
1. Convince myself that I should be priority this time around.
2. Convince myself that I need peace of mind.
3. Convince myself that I deserve better than a halfhearted, long distance pseudo-relationship.
4. Tell a handful of friends to remind me that I should not settle.
5. Block him on Facebook.
6. Cry my eyes out.
Before today ends, I need to do the following:
1. Keep myself busy, busy, busy.
2. Delete all photos, chat conversations and personal Spotify playlists insipired by him.
3. Update my To-do list to remove all things that I want to do that included him.
4. Create a "Me Plan" that consists of a haircut, a gym membership and travel plans to name a few.
5. Get more quality sleep.
1. Convince myself that I should be priority this time around.
2. Convince myself that I need peace of mind.
3. Convince myself that I deserve better than a halfhearted, long distance pseudo-relationship.
4. Tell a handful of friends to remind me that I should not settle.
5. Block him on Facebook.
6. Cry my eyes out.
Before today ends, I need to do the following:
1. Keep myself busy, busy, busy.
2. Delete all photos, chat conversations and personal Spotify playlists insipired by him.
3. Update my To-do list to remove all things that I want to do that included him.
4. Create a "Me Plan" that consists of a haircut, a gym membership and travel plans to name a few.
5. Get more quality sleep.
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