Wednesday, August 06, 2003

Small World

Before I head for home, let me just write this entry.

This is such a small world. Aside from the fact that a lot of people I know turn out to be working in the same company as I am, I am still surprised when I see a familiar face in the office.

First was my co-intern in one of the hospitals I had my internship in.
Second was my "former" bestfriend who turned out to be a close pal of the owner of our graveyard food provider.
Third was someone I met from the Sci-fi Fantasy Convention and one of the more popular members of TPTS.
Fourth was when I found out my teammate is the girlfriend of one of my high school classmates and this teammate is also a close friend of one of the people in TPTS.
Then today I just met a high school classmate. A known "chick boy" and an ex-bf of one of my close friends. He works here too. I am not that surprised. He told me he is waiting for his wife who is currently working in another building. His wife (civil) is one of our high school batchmates too. Whew! And they have three kids!

I just had a realization: that most of my high school batchmates seem to still be in the same circle. They still have connections and communication with each other. I learned that so-and-so is the godmother of the kids of so-and-so, then this girl is with this guy and this girl is pregnant, yada-yada... they are like "inter-related"! Is it just me who doesn't have that strong a bond with my high school "world"?


I guess it has always been my choice to be far away from them as possible. High school life was not the best moment of my life. True, there were great and unforgettable days, but I have always been a serious student in high school. Not to mention my father was a teacher then too. But I seem to be a goody-two-shoes and I regretted not being spontaneous and fun and naughty even for a while. Maybe that's why I seem to be making the wrong choices lately and still don't realize what I really would want to do with my life.


Seems like people are heading somewhere and I feel stuck in a limbo.

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I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard

I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it


Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing

I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now

My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep

I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

~U2, "Stuck in A Moment"

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