Since I lack a close friend at work right now, I notice I either spend most of my time alone or mingle with other people. Being alone is the least of my worries since I am used to that and I like being alone sometimes.
I notice that people really are grouped together-- whether they hang out most of the time or they have similar interests. I mean if a person is introduced in a group, the tendency is for this person to hang out with another one whom he/she could relate to most, or be included in a group of people who spend most time together. That or the person ends up alone and makes everyone else just an acquaintance. I just learned that the team where I belong also has these subgroups, as I call it. So if I'm not alone, I usually either hang out with the entire team or hang out in one subgroup or another. Now, the difficult part is that I seem to be stuck in a middle of a misunderstanding-bordering-to-animosity issue between the two subgroups. One group will tell me one thing and the other will tell me another. Each has its own reasons and I really don't want to weigh them. I felt as if I had to take sides, but honestly I don't want to. I don't like to work in a place where people don't get along or act like hypocrites with each other.
It feels like I'm in the middle of a tug of war and it is really hard not to fall on one side.