why?

After this troubling weekend, I asked myself why:

• do I feel lonely despite all the people around me?
  
• do I crave for things I cannot have and afford?
  
• am I not satisfied with what I am? Is it because I know that there are more things in life than what I know? Is ignorance really bliss?
  
• am I not happy with my current job?
  
• don't I have a passion in life?
  
• do I want to be someplace else than here?
  
• am I missing someone and loving someone whom I can't see as the one (forever) for me?
  

And lastly, why...

• am I often attracted to men who turn out to be gay? Is it because they have more sensitive bones in their body than the average male species? Or is it because I was male in my past life? Hehehe!
  
  
  
  
  If I fell in love with you
  Would you promise to be true
  And help me understand
  'cause I've been in love before
  And I found that love was more
  Than just holding hands
  ~Beatles, "If I Fell"