Friday, November 29, 2002

Random thoughts...

To fall in love is to take a risk. How would you know if the risk is worth taking? You'll never know until you fall in love...

There are really some people out there who would get out of the way just to ruin your day. My friend calls them "lurkers". They lurk... then attack-- attack when you're vulnerable. Sometimes, they don't care whether you're down in the dumps already or you're very happy. They just exist to ruin your day.

They may be in the form of a taxi driver who would purposely drive you to streets with heavy traffic when you're already late for an appointment, or a a bank where the tellers won't give you the money you're trying to withdraw (even if you're withdrawing there for the nth time already) since the signature is "not quite the same as before", even if the money that you're trying to withdraw is the salary that you deserve. Then they will let you wait for an hour 'til they contact and verify it from the signature owner. Or they may be in the form of a person who would keep on sending SMS messages and ask you questions and bother you to death even if they know that you have no means of replying. Then that would frustrate you and in the end, force you to reload. Or even a simple example of a man who would push you so he can get into the train first, even if there are lots of spare seats inside. Or maybe a person who would meet you for the first time-- a complete stranger who would then ask you if you like him and if you don't answer immediately (since you were surprised that he asked), he would assume that you don't and then sadly say, "Though you don't like me, I'm glad I met you. Thanks for everything". DUH?!

OK, it's obvious that I had a bad day. Bad indeed but productive. Oh well, TGIF! Time to rest my weary mind, soul and body.

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Last night, I got my old Alanis Morissette's "Jagged Little Pill" album. It was dusty and I checked the date I wrote there, October 1996. Wow. Actually, it's my fave Alanis album. I was just in the mood for her songs that time.

Two songs struck me.

Perfect
Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are
If you're perfect


Um... was that me talking?! Hahaha! But then I don't want my life (lovelife?) to end that way... I want to sing this, eventually...

Head Over Feet

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault


Unfortunately, the you in the song has no face in my thoughts yet. Who might he be? Hmmm...

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