
Happy Halloween!!!
ME: Gaya-gaya lang naman sya kay -(insert cousin 1's name here)- eh!
MA: That's what you call practicality!
ME: That's what you call stupidity!
I even surprised myself with that remark, but then I just woke up and was not in a fancy-shmancy mood. I realized I shouldn't have said "stupidity". I should have said "desperation". Wrong choice of word.
Yeah, I would sure love a fairy tale life like theirs, but let me find my own way of achieving my dreams. Unlike them, I'm not yet nearly 40 and I'm still young (err... relatively) and I'm not THAT desperate yet. And that's what it took for her to ignore me (again). Well, if she wanted me to marry for money as an easy way out of poverty, she shouldn't have educated me. She should have taught me how to have a servant-like attitude and how to make myself pretty and exotic-looking for those foreigners out there. Hey, don't get me wrong. I have nothing against marrying a foreigner. In fact, I find a number of them attractive. It's the just-marrying-for-money thing that pisses me off. Marriage is not just about the money. Money should only be a plus factor, but it should not be the main reason for marrying someone, especially those from another culture. She shouldn't have sent me to UP where I learned how to be my own person and where I started building my dreams. They may be air castles now, but who knows?
I have spent a part of my life working for others. I understand that my career (or the lack of it) can be frustrating and my mother may want to get the results of her investments in me ASAP. I apologize for that, but marriage is a totally different thing. I don't want to live a life full of regrets.
P.S.
Oh and FYI, cousin 1 is not even happy even if it seems like she has everything she needs. Why do I know? Now, that's another long story. I just hope that her relationship lasts because her husband is a gentleman and she's one of those lucky people who found one like that in the world wide web.
P.S.S.
I hope the next post will be a more cheerful one. Out-of-town gimmick later! Yay! And my horoscope says:
CANCER -Tilt your head back and take a gander at the skies above you. Look like there's a storm coming? Sure is -- and it's going to be a great, big one. Does that mean your world will be blown apart? Hardly. The difference between whether this turns out to be a great day or a bad one lies in your attitude -- and that's the only variable over which you'll have control. Smile, then. A lot.
If ever you feel down... lonely... angry... desperate... Because the world is not going your way... No matter what you do or say is not working... You have the right to feel this way...
SONNET
I don't think that I've been in love as such,
Although I liked a few folk pretty well.
Love must be vaster than my smiles or touch,
For brave men died and empires rose and fell
For love: girls followed boys to foreign lands
And men have followed women into Hell.
In plays and poems someone understands
There's something makes us more than blood and bone
And more than biological demands...
For me, love's like the wind, unseen, unknown.
I see the trees are bending where it's been,
I know that it leaves wreckage where it's blown.
I really don't know what "I love you" means.
I think it means "Don't leave me here alone."
Gawd, I want Mark!!!
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Ambition: to be a doctor